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2008-06-12T20:56:00.004+08:00

i'm having a splitting headache right now..
didn't even do what? vigorous mind activities today..
all i did was i attended the interview work shop [which was fantastic, btw]
and hang out with gay belle liang yapheng after that..
it's making me feel like fainting..
i guess it's from all that simulation of an interview condition..
haha.. i knew it was a mental problem for me, the word interview just tighten every nerve in my brain, my body in fact, and makes me just so tense.
well, then i got to admit that i'm not as gutsy as i seem and i'm a closet coward [just like how people are closet muggers/closet bimbos.. hahas, nothing wrong with that(: ]
yeah, guess i've grown to be more honest on my own blog since yeah, it's supposed to be a PERSONAL diary right.. though there're other eyes reading this entry too, other than myself.
haha, digress a lil bit, i used to be afraid of being judged by others. how i appear in front of others and what they think of me mattered a lot to me..
well, i'm not going to talk big and exaggerate about how i'm not afraid of being judged now..
NO, i still very much mind about what others think of me, as a person, as a friend [yeah, it's all that low self-esteem thingy]. but i can say that in relative terms i'm not as afraid to be judged now..
:)
it's all part of growing up.
the interview workshop talked about knowing yourself well, then package yourself to your advantage..
yeah(: so probably in the next few entries, i'll be "exploring" with the diff aspects of me, and yeah, getting to be honest not only with others, but also to myself..

oh. anyway(:
i watched this new taiwan drama, fated to love you
the story resonated in me cuz i could relate to the female lead.
yeah, she wasn't pretty, wasn't playing an important role in her friends' lives, she's just someone that was insignificant and people just make use of her "niceness" to get what they want [not that i feel like i'm being used, no no]. but yeah. in many ways, i could see where she's coming from. a plain jane, who will go out of her way for others and put in her all for the one she loves, even if it's not requited/recipocrated.
her presence makes little difference in other's life even in that of her family..
yeah okayy, so as the story goes, on a fateful day, she met this charismatic, rish and capable guy..so blah, blah, blah..yeah..the usual story goes on..and this other super good looking guy with wonderful personalities also admires her for her warmth and sincerity.. and yeah, the usual thing happens..blahblahblah [go watch the show to find out(:]..and it'll be a happy ending i guess..
three more episodes to go..
hahas. and guess what, in the latest episode, in order to forget the painful past, her lost child, the guy who she loves, who left her for another girl, she went to shanghai with the 2nd hot guy, changed her image and edited her name.. to ELAINE
hahas. yeah. just a coincidence, but yeah, out of so many dramas, how many main leads have the name elaine?
[smilng to myself]
pardon me for all these excitement on my part..
the story goes on, she trains under this imba pottery master, and craved out a successful career for herself, she succeed in becoming the butterfly she dreamed of becoming, the independent woman..
she metamorphosised(:
it's just drama, yeah i know, i'm not a kid too.
but still it's a small positive motivation for myself too(: and i'm happy about thia.

in today's sharing session. someone said that her weakness was low self-esteem..
i thought about this for very long..
it's gonna make me look weird..
it took me quite a bit of courage to tell her "hey, I think u're great. i really think so"
i really think so.
yeah, luckily for me the background was noisy and stuff, so my message didn't have it's full impact. but still i'm glad that that i said that to her. no regrets man..
so what if it makes me look weird.
hey i'm weird(: [unique's the word (: ]

2008-06-10T23:25:00.003+08:00

Time now : 11:25pm
i'm super tired now, eyelids heavy, falling asleep soon..
spent most of my time today at DONUT FACTORY.
it's my first study out day in a long long time.. since sec 2?
just wanna try and see if studying out helps me focus better
hrmm i should say that it did, if not for all the distractions, people walking around, couple flirting, kids clanking their utensils against the table. and not to forget, that sound-so-wrong classical jazz piece that was been played over and over again..
yeah(: so other that that, it would have been a perfect study "outing"..
but no choice really, it's a cafe afterall.. not a library
after all that "exploration" today, here comes the cliche phrase, "home is still the best place to be".

haha, yup. as much as i love DONUTs, love the cappucino, and enjoy the company of Meiching.
there's no place better than home.

haha, yups. i kinda came to a realisation today.
i know that i'm a person with not much mental strength and perseverance, as much as i hope to have, or as much as i need to have and should have.. being an ex-cedarian.
it's just one of my biggest flaw that i didn't want to admit to in the past.
just living in denial, kinda..
don't know why but i just came to terms with it today..
all the unhappy happenings and events which have occurred earlier in the year, were all part of a test for me.
A test of whether i have the mental strength to hold on to what i believe in, to work towards my goal, overcome the obstacles that may come in my way along the journey.
whether i will change the destination to make life easier, or will i persevere and find my way to the desired destination no matter how tough the journey is going to be. when the going gets tough and unbearable, will i give up?
when things don't go the way i want, will i give up? or will i still only have the final destination, my goal in my eyes
this is what i expect of myself..
HOLD ON and have faith(: that's what i like to tell people, but it's time i tell myself the same thing too. we're all so close to the finishing line.
ELAINE SOH, wake up, don't give up now..
i realised today why i've been a loser in so many aspects.. (almost 70% of the things i do), it's me to give up when approaching the crucial point..
so this time, I shall succeed, i shall do myself and those who love me proud, i shall achieve my goals, i shall not give up (:
HOLD ON tight to your dreams for the first time.
"you're no long the soft-hearted girl, so easily convinced, so easily pushed around by others, you always try so hard to please others, for this first, very important time, ELAINE, do it well, do it for yourself, do it for the people who love and support you (: truly JIAYOU and don't give up..
i really hope that this time i can exceed my own previous records/ performance/ abilities, by not giving up and shine as brightly as i can, do as well as my full potential allow, or even beyond

yes, everytime i lose focus, motivation or momentum, i shall look back at this entry as a reminder.
i will try to change for the better(:

I CAN and I WILL!

although today wasn't as productive as i had imagined it to be, i'm satisfied(:
the main point of studying outside today was to freshen up, gain the motivation that i lost, gain momentum.
yup(: i believe that i'd achieved that, so i'm contented with today, and i'm glad to be able to say that i've lived today to the fullest(:
[haha, i received my 2nd birthday present today(: ,though my birthday's still more than a month away.. MEICHING! i love the card and the softball earrings. really appreciate it. will pin the card up in my room. my first present is a pink teddy from my bro, who bought it from his first overseas trip(: thanks bro. ]
TMR WILL BE A BETTER DAY(:

JONAS BROTHERS- HOLD ON
When it falls apart
And your feeling lost
All your hope is gone
don’t forget to hold on, hold on

Cause an empty room can be so loud
Its too many tears to drown them out
So hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

When you love someone
And they break your heart
don’t give up on love
Have faith, restart
Just hold on, hold on

2008-06-09T11:54:00.004+08:00

it's time to study for CTs,
well that's a reminder for myself actually, since the time to start studying for it was way before today.
yeah, i just can't seem to get the engine started and get myself to sit down, focus and JUST DO IT.
i really need more pressure and stress.
REALLY..
it'll do me good since i've been lazying around, watching tv and stuff..
it's really got me feeling guilty. the level of guilt in me has been rising ever since the hols started and i haven't accomplished much, or been as productive as i want myself to be.
i really need to gain momentum and motivation from TODAY onwards.
kinda sick of walking around in the house and rotting on the couch.

i don't want to regret when i look back at this holiday, since i've already wasted almost half of it, i'd better do something useful and productive with the next half.

okayy, gonna start studying for CTs proper TODAY.
wish me luck (:

[oh i got my first pre-birthday present from my brother yesterday (: ]

2008-05-25T19:10:00.003+08:00

“Sometimes being a friend means mastering the art of timing.
There is a time for silence,
a time to let go and allow people to hurl themselves into their own destiny
and a time to prepare to pick up the pieces when it’s all over.”
Octavia Butler

yesterday was HARMOC concert. haha i really wanted to go, but didn't. the reason why i want to go was because jinci, jinghan and chunkiat were perfoming(:
haha, moreover, the hwachong TIPPERS went. haha really wanted to meet up with them and kinda like be their tour guide around VJ or something..
according to yaozhong the concert was awesome(:
good job man
Kudos to the harmoc pple(:

yesterday was meiching's birthday too(: can't wait for her to fill me in about her birthday celebrations and ***..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY girl

tomorrow's gonna be my pesky brother's birthday.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, dude..
grow up.. lol and stop demanding for expensive presents
love you(:

kinda stressed about all the tests coming up. Hope that i can really perform to the best of my abilities and do very well in them(:
i'm taking the psychometric test tmr,
and my Chem NTU final exam on friday
really need to pull up my socks and work really hard this week..
probably for the whole of next month too..
JIAYOUJIAYOU >.<
[why am i blogging now when i know i shouldn't..tsktsk..]

haha oh. i went to the hospital to visit my grandma today.. for the third time [not a lot i know, i'm sorry for that too] she was doing better when i last saw her, cuz now she's running a fever and seems really tired.
sians. i've completely no idea when she'll recover and everyone's still kinda worried, especially my uncle.

2008-05-18T15:01:00.003+08:00

Today's my grandma's birthday.
It's suppose to be a happy day, and we were all very excited about today, especially her.

Today's the day she turns 76, yet, she's spending her birthday in the hospital.
She was admitted this morning, due to stroke. Everyone in the family is worried sick. She's still under observation, for about 4 days or so, still in a critical period as it's going to determine if she is going to recover or not.

I was really affected for I've always had great affection for my granny who brought me up. I was her favourite and she was always proud of me. The thought of me, being of no use in relieving her pain at this point in time really saddens me. She's done so much for me in the past 17 years, but when she's lying on the bed, unable to move her left limbs, unable to see/hear/talk clearly, i could only stand there and watch her outside the ICU, it was heart wrenching. Tears started welling up in my eyes when i went into the ICU and touched her. it was so hard for her to tell us where it was hurting, even so, i felt her pain.

I didn't cry cuz i knew i had to be strong, for the sake of everyone in my family. Even though she cannot hear me, I told her to JIAYOU, be strong and Fight on, with my thoughts. I hope that she can hear me inside her heart and be strong too. Despite the language and sensory barriers, i hope that she can feel my love and support for her at this crucial time.

I pray hard for things to turn for the better, for my beloved grandma to recover and be healthy again.

give us a chance to celebrate her birthday year after year, let her be at my wedding, and my brother's and cousins'.

i need her to love me like before, i want her to be proud of me.

I'm glad that i didn't cry in public and be the strong girl that i should be.
now, i'm crying as i sit infront of the computer, writing this entry. i just don't want to bottle it up inside me.

what i know i need to do now is pray hard for grandma's recovery(: and have faith in her! believe in her fighting spirit!
yup JIAYOU JIAYOU (:

As she fight her battle, i will fight mine. Going to the hospital once again, reminded me of my internship week, it was a great reminder, a motivation and it fueled the dying passion for medicine in me. Now, once again, it's a strong burning flame in me, reminded me of what i set out to achieve, what i want to do no matter how high the obstacles are. I know what i want and i will work hard for it! for myself and the people i love. i want to be an emergency doctor.
Yes, i can. Have Faith and believe(:

2008-04-21T15:58:00.001+08:00

Dance like no one's watching
Love like you've never been hurt
Sing like no one's listening
Work like you don't need money

2008-04-05T21:42:00.002+08:00

heyys!
i started off the day by going for training at 7, today was the match against spartans, our senior. i just wrote reflections for it, so don't feel like blogging about it le..
but i enjoyed it though (:

it was council meeting in the afternoon. okay, it was way more then just a meeting, it was the exco speeches and election day. hahas. this is exciting.. after the "ct mass spam" sc exco qna session, we kinda gain a reputation of firing stabbing chim qna questions.
lol! wrong impression! i'm not the vocal, rah-rah, ask chim questions to stab people kind of senior! well, i decided to ask a question that day, though it's totally unlike me to do that, is because i didn't want the whole thing to be a stalemate, like "oh, no qns, that's all for qna today, victorians, you may vote for your next COUNCIL PRESIDENT".
as the leader of our school, if they cannot answer qna questions what more talk about leading the entire school population to greater heights and implementing changes.
actually my questions were meant to make people who can answer them shine among the rest, so it's actually for a good cause ya..
the question about inspiration and influence to jerrald was to make him more outstanding, i was quite expecting him to ans cuz i think he can!
my question to Hans was about idealism and pragmatism, very nicely answered, i was really take aback and impressed with his reasoning (or even crapping) skills, but it goes to show that he's good at speaking..
almost the whole LT went woooohhh...
every nominee has done a great job today(; really proud of them!
imba..
good job man!

had council lunch at Thaipan, it was a get-together, know-each-other-better, "scandal"-digging, camwhore session. had great fun together, the 16th and 17th ct council.
sorry serene! for revealing your adopted mortal!! really really sorry! it was unintentional, it just slipped out of my mouth..
oh no..
lols. beefoo! you didn't hear anything!!
i shall adopt a mortal on mon to make up for my lack of participation in council angel-mortal.. i shall adopt 4 at one go!
maybe i'll adopt beefoo.. hrmm.. to make up to him..
lols..see first(:

2008-03-23T22:30:00.002+08:00

Heys
School's officially, formally starting tmr. It marks the end of our long long holiday,and the beginning of something of utmost importance.
so to mark this day, the last day of our beautiful holiday, Xiangli, Sokyin, Meiching and I went for a photoshoot again(:
really had fun today, in the forested area, with the helium balloons and my furry wand. and most importantly, my friends(:
It's like a girls day out kind of thing, something that i missed a lot from my Cedar days..
I can't wait for the photos to be out!
thanks to all my dears for being so sporting!
and really sorry to sy for her specs :(
glad that i've done something meaningful today, to mark such a special day..

Fri was the last day of SRC.
didn't expect coach to put me in for the HCI match. really happy(: a big thanks to coach zhang. despite being a kanchiong spider, i did well enough not to disappoint her and the team. yup *pat on the back*
alright(: so despite losing to one team, the vj team still managed to clinch the champion title! yay(:

2008-03-15T22:14:00.003+08:00

For attractive lips, speak words of kindness
For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people
For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry
For poise, walk with the knowledge you'll never have to walk alone
-Audrey Hepburn

2008-03-14T20:38:00.002+08:00

Well they say that love is in the air, but never is it clear,
How to pull it close and make it stay
Butterflies are free to fly, and so they fly away
And I'm left to carry on and wonder why
Even through it all, I'm always on your side

today's the second best day of my holidays, the best was the day of the photoshoot of course(:
i had the entire morning to myself, reading through the newspapers and kinetics notes with music, all alone in the house(:
did that for about 6-7 hours. cool. haven't been able to have quiet time to myself for a long long time.
all these is possible cuz the matches scheduled today are cancelled due to the rain!
it's funny to see the contrast between weehao and i, one sad and disappointed, another smiling inside, busy planning for another great day ahead.
it's really great to have alone time, it's timely, now i feel more motivated to go for training and probably do work after having some rest today..
in a much better mental and physical state to do constructive activities now.

was sitting at home today, looking out through the windows, and i never stop wondering if it'll rain today, like the previous days. but wow, haha, it didn't rain at all! lol
it's amazing how heaven and nature never fails to give you surprises and delivers to you the unexpected..
today's weather is great. PERFECT [:

shall give myself a pat on the back for being more tolerant. i felt like rebutting and even crying when ****** scolded me. i wanted to speak up, argue and break down her claims, prove that she's wrong. inside me, my strong pride made me want to make my point that no one, no one has the right to scold me, scream at me, except my parents, especially when the point is hardly valid. the spirited but proud, rash and princess-y side of me seriously wanted to give her one hard tight slap. and if u know me well enough, there's nothing i don't dare to do. i know i definitely have the guts to do it, but this was another case where one's brains should rule over everything else. a wise and rational person would know better than to resort to violence. yeah, my pride was hurt, but i decided to treat her "assaults" with magnanimity and graciousness, qualities that cedarians should always have with them. this way, i won, i won the war silently, i displayed qualities that cedar instilled in me (qualities that i doubt she has).i may not be her opponent when it comes to bitching and firing aimlessly at people, but i know that i realised something bigger, to be rational, objective, magnanimous even when people trample on your pride. think fast, and put yourself on the winning end.
to myself: relax, cuz all these will only make you a stronger girl(:

if other people want to bitch, the only way to resolve/ get back, is definitely not by bitching back. trust me on this. you wouldn't want to be on that level, you're better than that
FORGIVEN AND FORGOTTEN(:
tmr's a brand new day!

2008-03-12T23:29:00.002+08:00

woke up super early today and crawled to punggol in the morning for a photoshoot..
quite excited about it though, probably cuz it's going to be my biggest break in the holiday..
the photos are here : http://cartepostale.multiply.com/photos/album/42/Punggol_2#
photographer: meiching
models: huanjek , elaine

yay! it was really fun despite the rain, the sun, the bugs and the mud. had a great day and i felt the greatest sense of accomplishment in the week!
thanks to mc and hj!

2008-03-10T20:14:00.003+08:00

haven't been blogging much lately.
kinda lazy to, so ya..

Life's really hectic nowadays, and things just go past so quickly that u'll tend to be lost in that moment. haha. i seem to zone out pretty often recently too..

yeah, so event's that just past:
SRCs (softball games)- on sunday
CT camp- today

SRCs- we won by 18-0, great job, but i guess it's no big deal considering our opponents. so ya, no room for complacency. all our impt matches are scheduled on fri! 3 matches all together, 2 in the morning, 1 in the afternoon.
JIAYOU(:

ct camp starts today!
haha. oh my it's so so fun! alright, i may be a little biased cuz camps tend to be more fun when u're not the oen getting scolded. but all the scoldings are necessary, so initiates don't take it to heart after the camp ya? afterall, discipline is something that a council cannot lack.
anyway, we played the first game of the day, UTOPIA(:
the theme of the camp was Heroes, as in the drama serial...
my team is CYCLOPS (my brainchild!)
for this game, i was the HEROMASTER so i got go around and tempt people to want to become heroes adn in the process make them complete a task for me. hahas.
these tasks were thought out by the very very creative HEROMASTERS.
which includes
getting a guy to sing "piece of me" by britney!(: [martin and hans!]
go to a fair guy councillor and say "oh my, i love your tan!"
....
also we had fake cash so we got to make them do tasks to win these money..
they did..
30 pull-ups and shout "i love ct council" (from 3 guys) for $1500
10 pushups with clap for 500
run 3 rounds around the canteen and say "i love ct council"
stand on the canteen chair as a whole and do the mass dance..
the game's really complicated, so ya, there were many other interesting stuff in the game, e.g. TORTURE CHAMBER!

for lunch it was quite interesting, they sat in a circle of around 18 people and had to eat with their hands tied to that of the person beside.
we gave them 2 and a half hours for this lunch! lols. what a sight to see them all eat like that!

feel like a doll trapped in a musical box
when will someone lift up the lid?
when will i dazzle and shine?
when will i get out of pitch darkness and see what the world has to offer
and see what the future holds for me, the doll in a musical box.
awaiting for the day to come
believing it will
never lose hope
for the day will surely come
the day when you swirl with glamour
the day you've been waiting for

2008-02-11T22:00:00.000+08:00

today feels like that first day of school again(:
i guess it is according to the chinese lunar calendar.
HAPPY CNY to all!

Regarding how i spent my 4 days of CNY break, actually i went to 2 houses only. one's my grandma's the other is my dad's aunt's. they're like our family reunion headquarters. so yup, i met up with all my relatives on the first day. other then visiting, my family played host thrice.
though it hadn't been much of a break, it was really fun and had truly bonded our family further. (with the help of mahjong of course(: )
for all four days, my family went out with my maternal grandma and other relatives. for the first day we had vegetarian lunch, for the second we had roasted poultry in canto style, for the third we went for canto dim sum at Kum Boat (marina sq) and for the fourth day, we had breakfast at Macs!
haha

for training today, we ran 2 rounds around the sch (2.2k) then cycle for 30 mins (10.6 k) then ran another 2 runs (2.2k) then came back and did 50 sit-ups and push ups..
and guess what, we forgot to stretch and cool down..
great, i can sense muscle ache coming...

have been reading through h3 notes over again for revision.
hahas. CONGRATS! cuz it's really hard. understanding is only the first step. still got application and lots of concepts to rmb!
argh! it;s seriously chim to the max. and the fact that the test is just after ct just adds on to it.
i'm not even through with the first stage yet!
stressed! so are the others, at least enghwee is.
HANG IN THERE!
jiayou(:

2008-02-05T21:17:00.000+08:00

Today's a wondeful day.
After school, i met up with wing, ber, yuchang and grace, and we did fence batting. hahas. did about 100 then done!
yay(: so wing, ber and grace accompanied me to PS after that so that i can buy my hula and co. pouch/bag.
so sweet.
was supposed to go on my own though.
haha. was so shocked that h3 lessons were cancelled today. hahas. a pleasant surprise i guess.
so for high tea, the four of us went to Long John Silver and we had the new Reunion meal. hahaa. it was quite filling la.. quite worth it.
talked about a lot of things.
along the way, i saw jessica, nicholas and esther!
s'pore is really a small small world.

the jigsaw puzzle card for Coach is done! yay, most of the softballers have alr signed and wrote on it. great.
i spent the whole night drawing cutting and fitting all the parts together.
wahh. my back hurts.

the only bad thing that happened today was that i got 19 for gp essay! oh my. so sad...
so much for being daring enough to try the harder topic. oh no!
JIAYOU ba..

shall blog about my chinese new year resolutions tomorrow.

2008-01-27T22:20:00.000+08:00

Tmr's MATTHEW SOH JUN XUAN's birthday(:
he's one year old already. he's my really adorable baby cousin. and i'm the person who came up with his chinese name *waves*
haha

went to Shangri la hotel's the Line restaurant for reunion dinner-cum- matthew's first birhtday party. it was buffet style.
oh my, the food there is awesome. the sushi, sashimi, pizza, honey porkribs, chocolate fondue, choc fudge cake, satay, noodles, icecream and more..
yumyum..
irresistably nice.
the ambience is great, and that includes the music, lighting and the service.
tbe perfect place to go on a date with a rich guy.

my aunt's being pressured into getting hitched soon. haha. i really think she's a great woman, with a friendly personality, a warm aura and she's quite capable.
but if i were in her shoes, i would be really stressed by all the relatives. she's got really high expectations though. heard that she's set her eyes on surgeons ONLY.
haha. just like fiona's idea of "i'll only accept those who're tall dark rich and handsome!"
haha! funny people.
alright then good luck to you guys for looking for that knight in shining armour on a beautiful charming horse.
well a girl's got her right to dream, doesn't she?
i kind of have an idea of the kind that i like. but most guy are not up to that standard, at least not yet. my dream guy may not be tall dark rich and handsome.
but he's still of high calibre. as for the details i shall not reveal it now(:
eh. but i'm quite sure that i won't like dark, rich and friendly guys.

oh. Shangri-la hotel is stunningly beautiful. i feel so small and minute there. like a cockroach in a palace. esp when i walked past the ballroom where a wedding was held. every single item represented glamour, class and wealth.
hahas. i saw a lady wearing the same dress that i wore for my prom!
it's the one that i'm going to wear for prom this year.
yea. at least i know that it's not out of fashion yet.
lols.

i'm exploding inside. people tend to eat a lot when it comes to buffet..
i think it's suppose to be $80++ per person..
super expensive.

i'm a contented girl(:

2008-01-24T22:11:00.000+08:00

i won't be going online anytime soon. got some virus :(

today's a really weird day. started off with me being really really high! like crazily high..
but i had a premonition, because usually when i'm so high, there're bound to be sad things that'll come along later in the day. god's just preparing me for it, like an appetizer.
true enough.
after break, i had fever. wingyan burnt her hand. i was disppointed and angry at someone.

so many things happened, but i couldn't bring myself to tell doreen who kept asking if i was okay. i felt like crying, tears were brimming in my eyes, but the words that came out were "i'm okay, let's get on with lessons".
when i was supposed to fill up this "fun-facts" list of everyone in class, i just felt like drawing a sad face across my row. but in the end i didn't. i just left it blank, just like who i am. no fun-facts, because i'm not a fun person in the first place. nothing funny, cause i'm no joker. i can't tell jokes. i'm a real serious person..
when i was supposed to take pictures/mugshots for a video, supposed to make funny faces, do really joker poses.. but i couldn't.
all i could do was to smile so that the others would be happy and wouldn't worry about me.
actually, nothing big happened, it's just like how one can suddenly feel emo..
it's like that..
thanks gay anyway.

i was really pissed, but not anymore now. can't be angry for long..it's a personality thing.
FORGIVEN(:

really inspired by what coach said today. i guess it's all about saying the right thing at the right time. i was very motivated by it. her point was that one's mind has amazingly, unpredictable power. all you ned to do is to harness that energy and you can accomplish what u set out to (:
JIAYOU!

hahas, wingyan was so cute today, gay and i bought chocs for her so that she won't cry cause of the burns on her hand, but who knows, she cried even more. when i see her like that, i can't be emo anymore. i wanted to cry with her though.haha. the scene was quite awkward, four people standing at the bus bay. mark was beside her while she cried as gay and i walk further and further away from her. oh my, it was like the departure scene at airports.
haha, i cannot take this kind of stuff. pple like me will cry like it's the end of the world, my buddy, the tippers are all my witnesses..

yes, this week has really been a bad one.
yea, got fever today, yet i went for training. burst my blister and all the pus and blood oozed out of it.gross, but nevertheless, still have to continue batting. have new blisters now.
haven't been able to hit fast/pitcher balls recently, dunno why just cannot eye the ball. seriously lousy pok. was quite ambarrassed about it..
kind of traumatised at h3 chem tutorial, lost and totally awed by the intelligence and dilligence of my classmates.
despite my packed schedule, i did presents for my angel and mortal and most of them in the junior class with a few others in class. chiong during breaks, in between lessons..
overslept almost every day..dark circles are making me panda-like.
people who're not appreciative of what i've done, i'm not asking for a million dollars or a ferrari, all i asked for was a smile, in the name of having respect for a friend.
is that not possible? but i'm not angry, i'll just take it as part of your personality.

is this the basic training for a juggler? i guess this is what we're suppose to go through in our senior year.
i'm going to pass it, ace it.
you can do it de!
hey, look on the bright side, all the bad things will only make you a stronger person..the hectic schedule simply equates to greater fulfilment, at least you know that you haven't been stoning all the time.
:)
think on the bright side man!
feel like crying oso must tahan..

too bad, you'll never get a peak behind my mask. i'll show my happiness, my anger, my excitement. but u will never see me sad..
at this point in time, i'm the only one who knows what's behind the mask when i'm sad.
or maybe some of my jie mei. but few..
even a knight has to prove his worth, well, even as a friend, i don't think you have.
yet..

tmr will be a normal day, an eventful one. thing's will go fine(:
只要笑一笑, 没什么事情过不了
nothing's changed(: tomorrow will be a fine sunny day.

2008-01-23T22:48:00.000+08:00

Teardrops On My Guitar

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's damn so funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus:]

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

don't know why, but my heart aches whenever i hear this song.
some secrets are never meant to be revealed. will you be the lucky one whom i'll confide in?
it's freakily true. agree with most parts.
the feeling of loneliness that comes with it is really scary.
she has the courage to be candid and to stand alone, do you?

JIAYOU ba..

on a lighter note. HUANJEK's going for music fest! haha omg! + yays!
you're right about me being your fan but u're wrong about u being lousy at singing.
good job! to the one who sabo-ed him..nice one!
vote for him ya?
will blog more another time
wow! he's finally going on stage. upgrade le (:
JIAYOU JIAYOU

was chionging to make presents for everyone in the junior class today. to boost their confidence and give them some luck for tmr!
gave them WANGWANG! lol.
yup JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU, from all in 07s56...

2008-01-21T21:28:00.000+08:00

hellos(:
esp to wing and jing..
blogging in a rush.
hrmm. about today, lol basically it's the same "in-a-rush" thing everyday.
yeaa
woke up late (6.45), rushed like mad to get to school on time. totally unglam-ness, but no one cares cuz we're all there to study ya?
there's a long chain of tutorials and lectures, and there's only 1 break before school dismissal at 1.55. went to do gym at 2.10 without having lunch.
greatness.
finished gym at 4.15, rushed to change and clean up then rushed to Parkway with doreen to get "stuff", mostly presents for people and birthday darlings..
spent a lot of money (going to claim back from class fund though)
two blur girls went shopping for presents without much money. lols! luckily there were no guys along, if not sure kena nagging from them de..

then rushed home, to finished up my work.
oh my..
i'm really really tired..
halfway through only..
econs essay and h3 chem tutorial
help!!!

hahas. jersey no. yup, made up my mind le. haha. actually i've decided on it a long time ago.. i want no.5!
i've got seven VALID reasons for it, really funny ones though. lols.
but a bit paiseh to say it here.
but ya. anyway, i don't need to have reasons to get no. 5. I just like the no. :)

oh. maybe i only have 6 reasons for it now, cuz SOMEONE, went to change from 6 to 32!
yea.. kind of like a spoiler. cuz i wanted to take picture of 5 6, cuz my class's S56, but nvm.. just treat it as no yuan..
forget it..
too bad, too sad..

haha, yea, i'll continue with my work le. break's over!

:) smile
love you!

2008-01-17T20:28:00.000+08:00

today's been a really fulfilling day.
classes ended at 12.45, so we all went out for class lunch at PP today(: woah, 15 people [record breaking!!]
at PP, Doreen and I were just standing around while the rest went with joc to develop photos, then we were approached by this old lady, who asked us for directions to an optical shop [the Lens men]. so while doreen took care of the old lady, i figure out where it was and how to go. the three of us really talked about a lot of stuff on the way there, though it wasn't considered a long dist for youngsters like us, for the old lady it was like having to run 2km just to reach there. We talked along the way, about the old lady herself, and more about Doreen and i. really enjoyed the whole process and conversation with her cuz she wasn't nagging, or assertive, she was really kind and sincere. in the end we spent almost an hour with her, brought her to the optical shop, get consultation on her specs. I was with her throughout and i totally could feel her difficulties. for one moment, when i thought of the extra trouble she would need to go through if she didn't bump into the two of us. felt really sorry for her, felt like crying when i heard her stories. she always tend to misplace her medical stuff, like bottles for urine tests which are really small, documents with updates on her medical history and other documents which she has to bring along to check-ups. she had to go from one consultation room to another and many a time, she had to do many trips cuz she keeps forgetting this and that. oh no.. and she has been a widow since 2006 and that makes her even more lonely. the feeling of being left behind by the society, burdened with illness and disabilities is terrible. she has difficulty walking and is deaf on the left ear. oh. she left us her address and phone no. :) haha. a really cute old lady. i'll definitely write to her to entertain her.. took a photo with her too :) haha. and even though neither dor nor i are christians, she keep saying that she really thank god for sending 2 angels out of the blue to help and accompany her, though she's a widow, she doesn't feel lonely because of the kind people around :) awww..
haha. she took down our names and no.s too, we wanted to teach her how to use the handphone, but no time..
really nice lady. it's our pleasure to meet her too :) learnt a lot today and it reminded me of my goal to become a doc :) JIAYOU! for the sake of these people who really need you!

yea, went for lunch. blah blah..
went for training after that :) yay! did a lot of batting today. got 2 bruises [forearm and ankle] and 2 big blisters on my hand. frankly, i enjoy batting more than fielding cuz i really suck at fielding..
oh. the lovely HONEY MILK TEA just made all the hard work at training worth it. my new found love.. aww..
haha.

going to pierce my ears this weekend. yay! ya ya, i'm piercing it at 17, great. i am seriously really scared of pain. excessive sensory neurones or too thin skin..
the first time i pierced last year, i didn't turn my head at all for a few hours. can't figure out who pple like debbie can tolerate 4 piercings on 1 ear. imba.
my tolerance for pain is really really low, it's like as if the pain is magnified.
that's probably the reason why i couldn't extend my bat and hit the ball with all my strength at the end of today, with 2 huge blisters on the left. tsk. *shake heads*
i don't even want to imagine what will the situation be when the time comes for me to have to give birth..
i've very very sensitive sensory neurones. hahas. oh no, i guess i'm going to be scared when i go for the piercing this weekend >.<

i really really need more motivation to study! i've great ambitions, great ambitions are hard to achieve. though they're great, they're simple. don't want to be rich tai-tai, millionaire or president. just want to be a simple girl, but a skilled and smart doctor. at least once in my life, i want to be a third world medic at africa for a month or so. yea, i guess the princess-y, gu-niang me probably would dread the dirt and weird insects around. but for the patients, for the people, for a invaluable experience, i'll do it, no doubts..
but the more practical side of my ambition, since i have to much love and care to give, will be to set up a free-consultation clinic. haha, best senario is to marry a rich husband and get him to sponsor the maintenance :) it's doing charity and accumulating good karma for the whole family. cool right? haha. i'm more than willing to put in my best to make this happen. anything man! have to work for free also nvm:) [haha, won't starve cuz got rich husband :) ]
haha jk about the rich husband part la, that's the ideal but elaine soh won't depend on guys ya? if i want to fulfil my dreams, i should do it on my own.
yea, working hard is one thing, but my family will always be my top priority.
so for now, i really need the motivation to study!! JIAYOU ba..

for my 16 PF, i got jobs like advertising executive, media director, paralegal, financial planner, PR director, bank manager and realtor. { don't really like this part)
Character traits includes :
warm, outgoing
abstract reasoning
reactive, emotionally changeable
co operative, avoid conflicts
lively, spontaneous
non-conforming
socially bold
sensitive, sentimental
trusting, unsuspecting
imaginative
private, discreet
self-doubting, worried
traditional, attached to familiar
grp oriented
tolerates disorder
tense, driven

haha, most of them are accurate i guess, oh but the weaknesses are freakily accurate
tends to overlook the need for herself to do quiet, deep thinking
subjective
overly impatient when faced with obstacles
taking on task which are too physically and emotionally demanding
use energies to do things which may not be what she wants the most
may overlook impt details that requires meticulous deliberation and planning
less prepared/organised
fickled-minded/not persistent enough
press hard in work, less opportunities to rest

well,most are true, some are not..

2008-01-14T21:38:00.001+08:00

HAH jas! this entry is written in response to your "elaine seldom blog" call.
lol.
school was as usual, a series of lectures and tutorials peppered by the xiangli's jokes and entertaining acting-cum-singing-cum-dance.
had softball physical after school, played vball and floorball after that. lol, kind of malu-ating...we did a NOOBS cheer
nothing much for today actually, except for xiangli's very hilarious enactment of the durian sisters from 881! so the drama..
oh. and weeho keep going on with his "my friend thinks that you're pretty" joke. lols. FUNNY. if he was trying to be sarcastic, yup, got it!

ANGEL and MORTAL with the junior class is kind of a failure cuz the junior guys don't seem to be writing back! heyys! calling once for my angel!! calling twice.....
please write asap ya? not much time left..
kind of envious of those who got replies..
aw..
haha, i was joking about whole "i'll throw his letter into the bin even if he writes back" thing. said it in a fit of anger, i'm not so heartless ya?

yay! h3 chem lessons tmr(: i'm quite looking forward to it, surprisingly, or not.
but yup! JIAYOUJIAYOU(:
the feeling of looking forward to something new, something special everyday makes one feel good.
reiteration of elaine logic #1: even if you feel sian, feel like dao-ing, feel like sleeping (which i do sometimes) , must find something to cheer yourself up and maek yourself smile, because that something don't always fall from the sky just to brighten up your day, such heaven-sent miracle is not an everyday affair.
in short, SMILE and be happy, because you're worth it!

2008-01-13T13:22:00.000+08:00

I spent the whole of yesterday afternoon at the airport with my teammates and coach. It was supposed to be a team bonding session. It went better and more enjoyable than i thought it would have been. I guess we're all closer now, even if it's just a little bit.Apart from the relatively serious issues like our goals and how to achieve them, we talked about food, shopping, other softballers etc.
oh. and we had lunch at ******* and then icecream at Swensons(:
the food at ******* was really really really bad! I mean, for that price, my expectations as a customer would be rather high and the standard of the food served just fell short of it. everyone was pretty disappointed with the lunch and belle even complained about it and rejected the food..
haha. they compensated with a scoop of icecream though, as a token to bury the hatchet.
The fact that they were charging that price for partially microwaved food was bad enough, and the fact that it simply turned out to be awful was just unacceptable.
In the end, i still ate up everything on my plate because it wasn't very nice to waste food, especially with the knowledge that the poor kids in Africa have nothing to eat, not even lousy microwaved food.
yup, so with that in mind, i finished up everything (no wasting ya? it's sinful)
moreover, they seemed apologetic when belle spoke up for us and complained, so that's it.
Apology accepted. FORGIVEN, that's why i'm not mentioning what restaurant it is, but it doesn't mean that i'll be going back for a second time..

yay!(: we had ice-cream at Swensons after that. it was fantastic. I wonder if it's the bad lunch at ******** that complimented the desert and made it especially tasty. Perhaps it's a relative thing. that's why people always say that it is only after one experiences sadness and grieve, will one truly appreciate the feeling of joy and happiness.

oh. and finally i finished reading NINETEEN MINUTES(: woohoo~ yay! FINALLY!
it's really a great book. considerably inspirational, you'll be amazed by how fate or the occurence of one single event can have a ripple effect, widespread repercussions on the society. how people can be separated for eternity and how others can be brought closer in an unexpected manner.
you'll get to know more about post-trauma stress disorder, value of happiness ( in an economics sense) and the mindset of victims in school bullying cases.
It tells you that parenting may not be as easy a task as it seems. what you think is right, may not be. one may be perceived to have the "perfect vision", to be a know-it -all, but in reality, no man is infallible.
It also illustrates how hard it is for some to fit in, to be accepted, some change and hide their true self behind a mask in order to do so, while the others who don't suffer the fate of being stigmatised and ostracised.
An act of vengeance may lead to a lifetime of regret

yup. got work to do(:
XD
see you on mon(:

2008-01-08T20:33:00.001+08:00

today's the first day of official lessons(:
some part of me was actually looking forward to today, well, i guess it's because of the guilt that we've been idling for the past few days.
yea. we were so stuffed up in the LTs cuz all the air-cons were not working and apparently the projected over-heated and spoilt cuz of that! lol

went for h3 lesson today. we were quite confused with the timings.. but nevertheless we got there in time(;
at TJ, where the induction is held, we were busy finding our way around. then a girl beside me shouted "jitrui!" and she asked the person for help, then i turned and stared. it was then that i realise that he was actually my pri sch friend! lol
a small world indeed, it was pretty weird staring at each other in the face and wondering where have you seen him before..
awkward's the word for it.
met winston too..
anyway in the LT of TJ, i met other fellow victorians who'll be taking the saem course as me. yay! kind of like new classmates..
there's enghwee (medical attachment!), edmund (the softballer(: ), yirui, nugraha, ben neo and stephanie (frm hse comm and sc!)
haha. interesting classmates! hope that we won't be separated for tutorials.
proper chem lesson will commence on fri.

oh, does anyone have recommendations for any good books? got to use up the money in the BORDERS card

2008-01-07T20:42:00.000+08:00

Today's sea regatta(:
and it's also the day that i lost my precious watch, so i'm writing this blog entry in remembrance of the watch which has been with me since a long long time ago. Though it may be simple, it had been somewhat like my guardian, i wore it wherever i went and only took it out when necessary. It's a sentimental item to me, so if u've seen it (a metallic silver watch with simple pink design) please return it to me(:
I'm really sad that i lost it amidst the dunking and sandcastle building.
in the mean time, i'm wearing an equally meaningful watch which is symbolic of the bond and friendship between my buddy and I(:

haha i'm sunburnt! yea, i still get it even when i'm already so tan.
today was fun despite the fact that we got off to a rough and unhappy start.
mr tan was asking for the j2s responsible for the dunking at the sandcastle station..
blur me just stood up without much thought since i was the i/c for that station..
haha. it was only until the other game masters asked me to sit down that i realise that he was probably not refering to me.
phew!
so the rule was "no dunking", which was pretty ridiculous since traditionally it had been a major contributor to the fun factor. but it kind of made sense when u consider the various safety issues and the fact that things tend to get out of hand when everyone's hyped up.
nevertheless, i still "got wet" *eh-hem* and this year's event ended without regrets(:

lessons will start proper tmr. i'm excited and stressed at the same time, but things that are meant to come, will come, just like things that are meant to happen will happen.
you just got to learn to deal with it and handle it well. JIAYOU(:
i've got a whole long list to do.
and
first up will be the econs tutorial dues tmr!!
haha

2007-12-27T20:39:00.000+08:00

yay! we've survived 2 days of softball training camp(:
everyone is aching all over from 2 full days of camp. 1 more day to go! JIAYOU(:

i'm so touched to receive christmas cards from these people. xiangli, doreen and zhuzhu.
so surprised to receive zhuzhu's card
really miss all my taiwanese friends.

yesterday was

2007-12-24T15:51:00.000+08:00

heyys(: this is my first entry since i came back from taiwan.
it'll be cliche to say that time flies. but it's an apt phrase to use now.
tomorrow's christmas! this year's a little bit more special because we've already given and received christmas presents! haha i really love the presents this year. got my creative ZEN from my parent [feel kind of guilty cuz i don't think i deserve it]
and a timely BORDERS card from my aunt..

leaving for joc's house in 10 mins time. suppose to be a class outing on christmas eve. haha i shall not whine about the no. of people turning up because it's time i get used to it since it's usually like this.
have a countdown party to attend at my mum's friend's house tonight. we're kind of like the regulars since we'll go down there every year for a reunion, my mum's reunion with her secondary school classmates.
it's really cool. now i wonder if i'll have a similar one in time to come, or will we forget each other as time passes by?
well, i'm contented to be able to meet up with my darlings last weekend(: had a great time. shopping [ shop-hopping madness!] and pasta mania.

just finished a book [A PLACE IN THE HILLS]
feeling kinda guilty for shelving my hw away for it. will make up for it (:
anyway, this book is awesome, i highly recommend it.
it's about a female archaelogist who tries to uncover a 2000 year old riddle from the past about the complicated relationship between a poet/soldier and a lady.
it's all about determination, endurance and luck. it shows how she finds the link that slipped past many others and solves the riddle eventually.

reading NINETEEN MINUTES by Jodi Picoult now.

will post my new year resolutions soon...

cheers~
and MERRY CHRISTMAS(:

2007-11-23T22:01:00.000+08:00

Departing for Taiwan tmr(:
will be at the airport at 0925. plane leaves at 1225.
will be back on 11 Dec..

so excited. was talking to mingkai yesterday about the whole thing. but couldn't really talk much due to language barriers.
yay! shopping. food. and friends(:
will blog in detail about it whenever i can. will miss everyone here!
haha. it'll be almost christmas when i come back.
need to get ready for mummy and daddy's birthday!
must study too!
plus get ready for christmas!
and also the softball camp after that..

went for training today. figured out that i should exercise before i embark on the 18 days tour. lol. it's been almost 2 weeks since i last practised. a bit rusty i guess. but i'll try to strenghten up during these 18 days, using the Tera Band. oh my, i heard that there'll be a swimming lesson for us in taiwan! no!!!
haha. i look hideous in my swimming costume. moreover, my rash still there..
it'll be good if i can train at least once with the softballers. or at least watch them train (:
anyway, coach took a video of us doing throws..
hahas.. so now there's evidence of my rusty-ness. i don't really shuffle my feet and i tend to drop my elbow..
joke!

yay! i'm super happy today, cuz i got into the NTU H3 programme. i was pretty afraid that i wouldn't get in.
phew~
Congrats to audrey, enghwee and yijin! (:

2007-11-19T14:38:00.000+08:00

suppose to be cable-skiing with the softballers today! :(
but because i've got really really bad rashes on my back, so my parents told me not to go in case it gets worse.
hope that i'll be alright cuz the taiwan trip's on sat! (:
it's called herald lessions. looks really disgusting. it's all over my back, supposedly in a christmas tree shape according to the doc. no known cause, therefore no direct medication. will disappear on its own after 6 weeks. which means that it'll be with me till the end of the year! have to be on medication to relieve the itch (but i have been skipping it for the past 2 days) it's really weird cuz there's no reason y one can get the rash and it's not infectious or wadsoever.
and it starts to itch only when i'm idle. or sian diao....

but i'll still be going for training on wed and fri. shopping with sy on tues.
need to do start packing on wed/thurs..

i'm saving up to buy the new creative ZEN.
haha. first time i'm saving up to buy something expensive. going to use my taiwan allowance though, as in the remainder of it (so i must spend wisely while on the trip). it's like a christmas present for myself...
moreover it's on sales now! all the more i must save up. after my calculations, i'll need $253!!
i guess i'll be able to afford it if i don't buy my asics sports shoes. so it's kind of like an exchange.
lol. the feeling of saving up for something u like is really special. it's been a long time.. kk. i shall do this on my own! >.<
haha

probably going to nic's hse for dinner on thurs. haven't ask huanjek, kenji, shannon and meiching yet. but if we're really going, it's going to be POTLUCK! (:
will decide on wed.
i'll most probably be cooking ham spaghetti at sy's hse if possible (:

2007-11-18T22:44:00.000+08:00

I went to AMK hub yesterday to support sam in his beatbox competition, with jon, doreen, wash, jas, ziyang and zijie. most of the participants were really good, it was really a tough battle on stage. after sam's performance we walked around and my bro treated my bubble tea. it was a really big joke. the bubble tea auntie was actually flirting with him! haha. joke! we bought 3 cups, and guess wad, the only cup which tasted nice was the one he bought, despite it being almond milk tea.
lol. so now we know it pays to be charismatic, even if your charm works on older ladies.
after that, most of them went off, leaving only me, jon, doreen and sam. then we went searching for shops to have my ears pierced. haha! can't believe that i'm actually doing it after so many years. my darlings must be surprised..haha. i refused to do it even during prom..
must be the few days in SGH, esp in the A&E dept that helped to raise my bravery level by ten times.
despite my much "applause-worthy" courage, i didn't move my head at all for the first hour. i look like a gonkgadoo. i even msged hj randomly just to complain about the pain. paiseh!if i had a pail of water with me, i would have been able to balance it well on my head.
went to orchard and bought present for lisa, yanjie, shimin(:

the day before in A&E dept.
haha! it was a really enriching and interesting day for all of us. we "shadowed" some MOs and docs. witness like a dozen blood tests.
my heart really goes out to those patients who're burdened with multiple problems.
now i really do agree very much with the saying of curing some, but comforting all..
in the dept, when there're so many patients that they fill up the entire walkway, while u're just standing there, helplessly looking on. it's really a terrible, heart wrenching feeling. you'll feel a strong urge to jump forward to lend a helping hand, but u know best that u're not able to. all i could do was to talk to the old ladies and uncles. comfort them, help them fulfil their needs to the best of my ability (which was to translate their complaints, pass messages and tear plasters! )
we all tried our best to make it as bearable as possible. talking to patients in chinese, english, hokkien and cantonese while the docs are doing the critical things (diagnosis) distract them from their pain. smile as widely as possible (even though we're all wearing masks) we talk to them about their grandchildren. lols. glad that we were able to help while learning from the docs. esp the super imba ones like Dr Gan and Dr Lee. girl power! haha. super cool docs. impressive to the max. our emergency specialist role models. we were on our feets for the whole day. though it hurts for all 5 of us, by the satisfaction at the end of the day was worth it all.
due of patient confidentiality, i shan't blog about the details, which are really interesting..
after the day ended, we went to distribute presents! hahas. the guys got to see their fav nurse again and the girls, we got to see our surfer dude again! we would have missed him if we were late by another second. cool.haha..will miss our surfer dude and his charismatic aura.
yup. met up with francis (year 5 graduating in a few months); he was the one who gave us really cool insights on the life of a med student. definitely not as glam as we all imagined it to be, but i guess it's not all about glamness. there're many things that will drive a person on. like the satisfaction and joy derived, the passion. it's the desire to change and impact one's life in a positive way, to be there to comfort and cure, to play a life-saving role that drives every med student on. the desire to live everyday of our life to the fullest.

2007-11-13T21:32:00.000+08:00

On monday i went for the taiwan immersion rehearsal cum briefing at Rj,so i missed the first day of my medical attachment (orientation)
the cheerleaders experimented with new stunts and ideas and we did well(:
lots of effort was put in by everyone. i was really glad that this is the case cuz i was quite afraid that they wouldn't support my idea of cheerleading.
everyone was super enthu, even the guys. they were JOKE to the max. i didn't even regret a bit about asking them to join.
despite the bumps and obstacles that we faced, we overcame them as a team! We stuck together no matter how tough it was.
We never stop experimenting, never stop pushing our limits.
like kenji said. make all the possible mistakes u can make during rehearsals and don't do it in the actual performance
no man is infallible.
it's more impt to move on then to pursue who's fault it was.
True friends will stick to each other no matter how tough the road ahead may be.
we all have put in a lot of effort and trust me, i will not let all these go to waste.
we just need more practice to shine through and show pple what we really have.

anyway..
haha. we have a male flyer. it's cool to the max. interesting..
JIAYOU(:
i seriously need to practice more. the reason why i fall is because subconsciously i didn't treat it seriously. and for a sotong with high cg, like me, the chance of losing my balance is super high..
tsk. looking for trouble only. haix.

`love the cheerleaders

haix. there're certain emo issues which i cannot say it right now..
tsk.

MEDICAL attachment(:
we did radiology today. watched a operation (insertion of a catheter to the neck region). learned and saw the CT scanner, MRI, ultrasound, x-ray. and we also sat beside a radiologist while he is writing all the radiology reports.
cool to the max.
had a fun time with the MRI (magnetic resonance imaging). as i was the only physics student there, a specialist, julian was talking to me about the basic mechanism of MRI, and he really got me interested in it. it was hard core physics! at least to me it is. he asked me lots of questions and i feel dumb when i couldn't ans. haha. saw 2 patients going through it.

going to have nursing classes tmr(:
pharmacy class on thurs.
and A&E on fri!

2007-11-09T20:28:00.000+08:00

heyys(:
yay! tmr is class chalet part (II)
cool.
initally it didn't begin with a good start. i met up with jas, wash, jon and ziyang to clean the hse before the rest come. BUT, the house was unexpectedly dirty! it was covered with a thick layer of dust all around. and the good thing was that we all work together and worked hard to clean up the place before noon. lols. and there was a lizard in the mop. i screamed when ziyang caught it and brought it near me...ew. a drowned lizard.

at noon, james, weeho, mega , weirui, winston and amanda came. hahas. oh. and the tv is a twelve in. one, super small. haha.. so much for a MOVIE MARATHON..
lols. i was disppointed in a way la.. just hope that the rest wouldn't mind.
played lots of games, went to the playground for girl talks too..

oh then today, i woke up early after a pretty light sleep in the night. at about 5. heard pple talking.
hahas. was a bit left out of the topic, as in it was very much of an inside joke thing..
so i kind of switched off and went into semi-sleep mode.hahas. then i started to EMO!
hahas. super funny. i've nv emoed in the morning before. was thinking about how high my defences were. i realised that though i display my most genuine emotions without much control , there are still a lot of people who do not know me well. or rather, they probably think that they've got me figured out. but when i happen to hear some pple's random convo, i realise that no, that person really really do not know me at all. it's a feeling of disappointment when u realise that a person whom you know rather well, happens to know u just at the surface.the level of understanding is so shallow that my heart dropped all the way to the bottom upon realisation.
sad.
then i cried when doreen, wash and jon left the hse and everyone else was sleeping.
hahas..
i wonder, am i that hard a person to fathom? no i don't think so. this probably means that the person has never bothered to get to know me better or rather, just assume that i'm of a certain character by fitting me into stereotypes. indirectly telling me that i'm just like someone you know. -.-!compare compare and compare.
i hate comparing with others because i believe that everyone is unique in different ways, there'll be no end to the comparison process. and many a times pple get hurt.
that's why i compete and compare with myself. as long as you've won yourself, it's enough. isn't it? life would be an endless well of unhappiness, jealousy and dread if pple were to compare with each other all the time.

emo! hahas. told you i'll be emo when i'm tired and hungry..
haha.weird right? i thought so.
and i don't cry in public [good job] that's me(:
i believe that most pple, especially girls, with strong character tend to experience loneliness more than others. but i guess that is the price to pay if u decide to be a strong person(:

but i'm glad that there're pple that i can really trust.. the above is just about 1 / 2 people. haha. thanks a lot to those who listen to my stories, hear me grumble, hear me laugh, joke with me, share their personal stories with me(:
e.g. my JIEMEIs, winston, liang, samuel, huanjek, nic. serene. wingyan. wash. weeho

STARDUST!
hahas. i introduced the movie to them [hy, jon, dor, wash, amanda, weeho] hahas. it's super nice! it's touching, funny yet meaningful. nice cinematography too.
the front part was quite boring though, at that point of time i was quite afraid that they'll all doze off.
but after the beginning, it was super nice, all the way to the end, especially the ending. hahas. the "gay-ness" of the show, the fencing moves, the "hanging-at-the-edge-of-the-cliff" moments. and of course, the beautiful ending.
an awesome movie(:

yes. some parts of the movie was a bit too drama.
then the drama-ness sort of rubbed off on me and the things that happened to me after the movie was pretty drama too.
i was holding my shoebag and a plastic bag initially.
after the movie ended, hy, jon, wash, weeho went off super quickly, i guessed they wanted to "scare/test" doreen and i.
i was starting to look for my plastic bag. then the alarm bell in me rang. i lost the bag which has my cap, bottle, softball glove, softball, tera-band. it all adds up to 100 plus..
oh my. i was panicking inside yet calm on the outside. checked the theatre and toilet. nothing. we couldn't even be bothered with the rest who tried to play tricks on doreen and i. and poor amanda was stuck with us.
i couldnt' think of where the others were "hiding" all that was in my mind was that i had to find the bag, no matter wad..
in the end they gave up hiding themselves and they came looking for the three of us.
i dunno whether they feel guilty for leaving us there alone while we were frantically looking for the missing bag.
so in the end, all seven of us were running around looking for the bag. i was quite touched. i can see the things that my friends do for me though i was running super far in front. really really touched. love you guys and thanks a lot.
oh. in the end they all had to leave.so that leaves only hy and i. she is such a darling, we went back to all the places again. checking those places for the third time!lols.when the rest said "elaine jiayou, must find the bag! " i was super touched , plus i was quite nervous le. then i started tearing. haha. no no. i didn't cry in public. i quickly turned and walk away from them even though i didn't want to cuz i know that if i stay 1 sec longer, they would have seen the tears rolling down my face.
i was still joking with hy while finding the bag. hahas. she was like "wah. u joke eh. at this point of time still can talk about this kind of stuff".
hahas.
yay! in the end with our optimism and the helpfulness of the cinema staff and the kind soul who brought the bag to the counter. i found my bag XD
thanks a lot!(:
just smile and there's nothing in the world you can't overcome

looking forward to chalet tmr(:
GAMES night! proudly organised by ME! haha..
promise that it'll be a blast!
moreover, dinner is sponsored by mr wong!

2007-11-02T21:06:00.000+08:00

hahahs. when i'm hungry or stressed, i'll feel emo. though i know it, it seems impossible to control.
doesn't matter.

Now must chiong for PW! hope that my group and i can do very well in PW!
having my OP on monday.
just completed the video. hrmm. it's almost done.

went home with joc. We planned for both PW and the class chalet. hahahs. so excited about the chalet. lols of fun stuff like games and movie marathon (:
going to put up balloons, get sparklers and cake to celebrate birthdays!
lols. can't wait for thurs to come

as for now, JIAYOU!(:

2007-10-31T21:08:00.000+08:00

Hellos!
it's pw. training. pw.training. pw.training now..

we went to SENTOSA yesterday as a class(: with the main purpose of celebrating jas's birthday and for class bonding. we played vball, capt's ball and frisbee...spent the rest of the time cam-whoring and talking serious stuff.. hahas. about LIFE.
yesterday was a good example of how elaine-cannot-be angry-for-more-than-24hr. hahahs. joke..
after feeling angry. i'll feel guilty..
guess it was that very very yummy yakitori which really brought me back from all the anger and emo stuff..
hahahs. small nice stuff can make me smile..oh. the kinder bueno from yanjie helped too(: my all-time fav choc..
we also went to thai express for dinner..
when i went home, i realised that i was super sunburnt! eww..
hahahs. now it hurts like crazy and it's so itchy! and not to mention ugly..
aiyo. must stop complaining about all the pains and aches le..
if not somebody always compare me with jon, who always keeps his pains and injuries to himself..

as for today. it's my jie mei's birthday! JASLYN LIM(: hahas. gave her a card, heart-shaped lollipops in a bouquet and a choc triangle cake yesterday..
waiting for midnight, to be the last to wish her HAPPY BIRTHDAY(:

had pw meeting at my hse today! hahahs. first time .. not bad, at least there's some headway..

had training in the afternoon. paired with clarissa and yuchang..
hahahs. clarissa's a really really nice girl. super likeable/ very helpful and sincere. though she sports short hair and look tomboy-ish, but she speaks in a soft tone. and always there to take initiative..
it'll be good if she's my junior..
so is joreen.

2007-10-23T22:03:00.000+08:00

FACEBOOK-ing..
just started facebooking a few days ago. it's quite fun, but after a while things get tedious and u get sian..

OP WORKSHOP
lols. had my op workshop today. as usual, i was super nervous! all the butterflies around, couldn't keep them still.
when it was my turn, i started it steadily, then i guess i was too "news-presenter"-ish.and i forgot to smile! lols. where's my signature smile XD?!!
so the very very thoughtful and ancouraging xiangli and jas made this poster which wrote [SMILE!] on one side and [CALM DOWN] on the other..
i was shocked, happy and of course, encouraged.
but me being elaine soh, after that small little smile, i couldn't maintain! and i broke out in laughter in the middle of the presentation. JOKE! oh my. i couldn't stop laughing..
then during the QnA..lols. i was given this qn which i had no choice but to tell a small white lie! but cuz i don't like to lie. even when i had too. it was all written on my face. half the class or maybe even the trainer knew that i was lying! oh my.
i had everything, all my thoughts and emotions written on my face. though it's not spelt out. u'll roughly know my emotions.
oh my. such an embarrasement!
for three consecutive days, i've encountered embarrasing acts! each one more dramtic than the other..
when i looked at the video playback of my presentation. the first thing that came to mind was, oh my, i didn't know i look and sound so joke (eh, i look like a wild rabbit with long legs :( ).. it's weird looking at a video of yourself. weirder than looking at yourself in the mirror, weirder than taking photos..
so now i understand why pple like huanjek don't like to take photos!

2007-10-20T23:02:00.000+08:00

here's a revival post for this blog..

was too lazy to post about the mundane happenings in the past few days..
today's the last episode of my fav doc show(: oh my. sad..but i like the ending..so ya.. SATISFIED..

saturday night(:
suppose to be a fun and vibrant one for lively and youthful teenagers. hahas. but we're all at home..
HOME SWEET HOME(:
guess so. super sian diao now, so that's probably y i'm blogging now. sorry.
was thinking about whether i should try cutting short hair. not bob though..
dunno.still thinking. feedback?

wad really troubled. confused. and emo for the psat few days..
lots of things to settle. hard to list it all. it just seems like a lot of stuff..
ya. liang's right.. i'm weird..where got pple emo and stressed after promos de?

[a note: things that follows after this may not make sense to all]
is it human nature to engage in endless pursuit for things that one lacks?
when is it obvious that u have many who cares for u, who are there and will be there when u need them..
why is it that u only have eyes for the one that looks away. the one that obviously doesn't care..
this's another case where quantity doesn't seem to matter.
but it definitely does not mean that one should neglect the things that one alr possess.
this is greed isn't it?
when pple say treasure what u have before it's too late. many pple agree.. in fact to the extent that it becomes and cliche. but really, agreeing with it is one thing, doing it is another..
the hole..the emptiness..
needs to filled up.
the lack of security, self assurance and confidence..
certainly it can be hidden, but it doesn't mean that it's not there.
it can be filled with many things, of course, there are so many things which are important and significant to us. treasures to us in many ways...
so after today, i'll be certain. certain of how i want things to be in the near future. certain of what i working towards..
don't digress, dont' be distracted. don't look away(:
yup .that's my way of doing things. fast, swift, get it done once and for all and to the best of your ability put it at the back of your mind. or in this case. deep inside your heart...
compress it..
so that u'll have more capacity to love those who really love u, for those who were there and will be there for me..
there shouldn't be stinginess in giving love. it's free. it's unlimited. so give it to those who really deserve it. my family :)darlings:) jiemeis:) and friends:)
care for them .love them .give it your all and live with no regrets...

2007-10-16T20:59:00.000+08:00

today's a tiring but really fulfilling day.
did pw in sch(:
completed WR!
yays!

went to visit jon in CGH. he's my first friend whom i've ever visited in the hospital. the feeling is weird. it's a bit uneasy, yet excited.
it was as if we were exploring the place.
while waiting for jon for about an hour. mega and i walked around and we found the operation theatre.
it was a scary place to be in. the atmosphere was tense. and it really make u feel nervous. then ppl started approaching us and ask if we were visiting their relatives..
we sat infront of the glass panel which separates the operation walkaway and the waiting area. was watching superman in the mean time.
kind of scary to see pple being pushed in the bed one after another. after some time, u wonder which is your friend. eh. many false alarm..
the girls drew a card for jon. it was a combined effort.
gave him a green card and green grapes(:

GET WELL SOON BRO!

2007-10-10T20:44:00.000+08:00

today's a wednesday.
went for training today. 3 times a week. haven't really recovered for the previous muscle aches and now it's training time again..
love training(:
despite all the muscle aches and all my whinings about the pain..
eh. not very satisfied with today's performance, but according to wingyan, it's good.
did some ball drills with coach. had to sprint a lot.
I did my best. proud of myself cuz i didn't give up. haha. we did 3 sets in all and i was breathing so hard that coach asked me "elaine u got asthma or not?", super out of breath..
pretty good for my second time at this..
definitely going to have serious muscle aches tmr.
together with my three new blisters on my feet. hahas. i'm going to walk in a super weird way tmr.
with a limp.
like a lame duck.
oh no.
going to look like a joke again..
no wonder belle wad telling us that pple are asking y softballers all walk in a weird way! lols. joke!

for TIP.
oh great. i was coerced into being in DANCE. oh no. while all my other friends are in logistics. this is so unfair! i was one of the few to volunteer for logistics at the start. then wong didn't want to put my name down. then everybody kept quiet. chaoyang looked at me. and wond started psycho-ing us "i'm so disappointed, in the interview, u all said that u don't mind trying new things and perhaps put up a performance" eh. ya. so soft hearted me went forward to discuss with the girls and we all joined the dance group.
i seriously wanted to back out when i left the room. lols. plus nic, kenji, shannon adn meiching were laughing and ka-chiaoing me like mad.. but i'm not a PS queen so ya.
i've my reasons for not wanting to dance. it's not just because no one else wants to dance and i don't have close pple to dance with. with training going on 3-4 times a week, i'll probably have muscle aches throughout the period. what about pw? and now to add on to the stress, i need to choreograph the dance and practise it.
oh my.
how am i going to do all this? i'm no octopus ya..
guess i'm just going to endure through all these. and get everything done! :) JIAYOU
cannot give up!

pardon me if i keep whining tmr.. i'm complaining now probably because i can't complain much tmr. someone once said that even jon who trains 5 times a week nv complain. so y should i?
yup. ENDURE!
poor thing. having to read through all my complaints must have been terrible..
THANKS(:

in the mean time. need to go solve other pple's problem or be a listener le.. medic elaine's coming :)
then complete WR.
and print attachment app form.
yup. lots of things to do..

love u all(:

2007-10-08T22:36:00.000+08:00

today's the day when i've mixed feelings.
really really happy with the results so far.
got lots of people to thank.
THANK YOU for letting all these be possible
i cannot be more grateful.

but something that happened today and my performance at training really saddens me.

let's start with the less disappointing one...
training. made a pact with coach to put in 101% effort in training
got to do it. it's easier said than done.
did drills and conditioning today..
maybe it's cuz i haven't training in a long long time.
so my performance level is really low and i look super cartoon. don't ask me y..
still got lots of things to learn..

next issue at hand.
someone's disappointed in me. or rather a group of people including me.
and i'm disappointed in myself too..
i feel so bad. so much for all the "i'll-put-in more effort-and-heart-to-care-more-for-my-friends" and blah-blah. now it seems like it's all rubbish, which is true, until i can practice what i preach.
i hate being a hypocrite. or even an oversensitive creep.
perhaps it's my repeated encounters with people who keep telling me to relax and don't need to keep my sentivity antennas up, that i now an insensitive baddie.
this is what happens when u treat all your friends equally! alright..
all i can do is to learn from the lesson. at least now i know.
alright.
my antennas are up and working again. at least when i'm with girls (:
don't worry. it won't happen again (: smile..
i heard a quote like this in some movie, but nvm.. lols. i shall rephrase it can make it my catchphrase.
"when u have more people to love, it doesn't not mean that u'll have lesser love for each of them"
every single friend of mine is important because love is infinite (:
and u have my word on that..
i'll be there. giving all i can, even though it may not be a lot.

2007-10-06T18:44:00.000+08:00

today's OPEN HOUSE(:
weeees~
my duty for the day starts with IGLOO duty. lols. the place was invaded by the soccer guys, who sort of became live "models" for all the games and facilities, giving live demo and all.
actually there wasn't much to introduce, it was pretty self-explanatory.
with eugene and i on duty today, we were super tempted to play foosball and pool!
in the end i teamed up with terence and we played 3 matches of foosball against 2 or 3 soccer guys and we won all three round. [high five!]
aiyo. but it was all so intense that i could practise or use my special defender moves. the weird thing about it all is that was i change to being a striker i cannot touch the ball at all! super lousy.

next activity was break/ school tour. so we went around and visit all the booths. lols! love the volleyball one. keep going back there with eugene.
as for their hoops game..
nugraha was super pro at it. i threw the ball to him and at his first shot, he hit the ball into the hoop! IMBA! (:
eugene tried next.. hahas. i threw the ball a hundred times and he couldn't get it in. super funny. hahas. make me catch the balls only.. super joke. but it was super fun!
then it's huanjek. that super strong guy. ask him to hit the ball with two hands in the vball style. he hit with 1 hand. ask him to aim at the hoop. he was probably aiming at me. thanks la! hahas. joke!
funny people..
just then the whole group of vballers came back. eh. so i had to stop playing le. if not it'll be such an embarassment..

we ate cotton candy. icecream and drank a lot a lot of tea! heard that we ordered 2400 bottles of them! 0.0
sugar overload.
walked all around the school.
directed parents to electives hub
ushered sec 4 students [hehes. actually, they're my juniors]
watched performance.
kena bribed by xijing in a super cheapskate way. with 1 sweet, which eventually ended up with jia hui! -.-

went for lunch with the fellow councillors. [sorry for ps-ing yanjie :( ]
went parkway KFC.hahas. did the normal council outing activity,which is to gossip.
not really about bad things though. after all we're nice people
talked about the imba people around us. about food. about shopping. about teachers. about open house..
and eventually about the couples in sch. guess what about 10% of the j1s are attached. hahas. we actually started counting them. lols!
all five of us are on the same boat. at least we know that we'll keep it like that until the end of next year... sure can maintain de! lols.
i guess when u're with certain group of people, u'll talked about certain topics. it's natural. fun in a way.
love outings (:

i'm super super, ultra tired..

GOOD JOB TO ALL!
sc, ct, ushers and all who were at the booths. GREAT JOB(:

2007-10-05T21:53:00.000+08:00

Oh my! i woke up to a shocking friday. Realised that it was 7 when i woke up and i had to be in school by 7.40. PANICK! it's never happened before, neither do i want it to happen again. so for the very first time, i rushed out of my hse in 10 mins without breakfast and took a cab.
with my sense of urgency and speed. lols. and the driver's skill of course + traffic conditions. i was on time XD phew

FOOD! hahas. my fav topic. still cannot forget about the cookies and cream donut yesterday. and now i'm eating ice-cream. thanks to mr chan (:
[word of advice to the ladies: pls don't eat too much out of a sudden, all the more if u tend to sit down for long periods of time. if not u'll get ugly stretch marks on your thighs :( ]
love choc icecream.
apparently yanjie loves them more...

OPEN HOUSE!
it's tmr (: yay! i'm so excited. weihan, esther, junling and co.. are coming to visit vj (: and of course their beloved dolly and me!
oh my. miss them so so so much.
like yanyi said we must have an exco outing soon. yups. after her As (:
going to bring them around. hahas. esp to the cca booths to play games. and of course, bring them on sch tours..
on top of that,
there's igloo duty tmr! just cleaned up the igloo with the other CT councillors today.
it's unexpectedly DIRTY!
but doesn't matter. now it's sparkling clean and we're setting up our ct booth inside the igloo. weeees
+ need to do special ushering too [ job scope: usher parents who're here alone without their kids]

tatas~ until tmr

2007-10-04T12:11:00.000+08:00

recommended dramas of the holiday:
hahas. this's super cute:

the ultimate housefly!silly but ever so caring

2007-10-04T10:31:00.000+08:00

Let's start anew
I wanted to go jogging today, but can't find pple to jog with cuz people like hy, jas and zijie cannot wake up early in the morning. and ya. i got dao-ed by the only person who can make it in the morning :(
going to the library and to the clinic later.--> boring, but necessary

I NEED MY SOURCE OF ENTERTAINMENT!! XD

i'm waiting for jas to post yesterday pics of the BEES(:
took neoprints and pictures at the Graffiti cafe. We had lunch there too. nice food(: and we saw jon there (not wong.) He's a really really nice guy. somebody's got good taste.
okay.so for the rest of the day, we shopped for our own stuff, shopped for pple's present, cracked our brains thinking what to buy for the birthday boys and girls. We kept eating all the way from HEEREN to far east. Wonton noodles, soursop drink, salmon sushi, donuts.
who cares about being fat? lols.
yes. so sorry! i jaywalked without looking at the cars AGAIN! oh no.
i don't know what's my problem this few weeks. keep thinking about some stuff which are pointless to brood on. and keep doing seemingly brainless stuff.
YUP! today's the day i declare that the good old ELAINE's back(:
no more emoing. smile, be optimistic. put in my 101% to make myself and everyone around me happy(: and from tmr onwards my 100% effort and dedication into serious work. CHIONG!
hahas.
the time for emoing and mood swings are over. time to work. time to start training. time to do my very best for my friends. time to just be there and contribute.
LOVE U ALL!
won't cry again. won't emo. won't fret.
because now i know what i want and i won't give up.
no matter how tough it may be.
i'm a STRONG girl and yes, i can do it XD

hope that things will start to be smooth sailing from tmr onwards(:

2007-10-03T10:34:00.000+08:00

I can't believe that such a glutton like me actually ate only a chocolate rice bread and gelare for the whole day! considering that i ran-and walked 4~5 km at bedok reservoir, did housework, went out with the class and rush home to tuition my brother.
that's probably y i was in a bad mood yesterday. hahas! so i guess it boils down to 1 sentence "eating makes me happy!" , though it makes me fat.

okay. so after eating a hotdog bread, a big big bowl of soya bean curd in the morning. and a good night's sleep.
yup! i'm alright now(:

after chionging the whole huan huan ai series. now must watch my favourite HOUSE! yay(: episode 2 le. SEASON 3. love it:)

after a day of wallowing in self-pity, i'm back on the job. eh. that probably includes worrying and caring for those around me.
and yay. help solve prob(: so many pple to help now. no time to think about other stuff. GOOD!

2007-10-02T23:34:00.000+08:00

i'm so exhausted.
i'm tired.
i'm sad.
i'm emo.
i'm pmsing.
and yes. i'm tearing.

actually it's all my own fault.

there's a limit to how much joke, suan, pangseh, rolling eyes, dao and bullying acts i can take. afterall, i'm only human
yes i know it's all just meant to be a joke, a laughing matter. but the boundary is blurred. i need time and space to do so. so until i'm sure i've recovered from all the hurt and injuries. please stop.

it's like going to battle everyday. no matter how strong your armour is, one day it'll be broken.
i'm willing to put up and fight and go for the battle.
but i need time to mend my broken armour. my defences.
maybe it's been cracked or bent in the first place. maybe it was fragile to start with, yet i choose to ignore all these and go ahead and put on a tough fight..
i'm like a frail princess, yet a proud one. STRONG and tough enough to be, or at least act like a warrior.. can i survive the battle? :)
time can mend all wounds. and so can precious friendship and love.
thanks to all who stood by me.
though this's a solo battle or a one against many battle.
i know that i have your support(:
like that old track and field quote "we stand alone together!"

thanks a lot to jas who had to put up with my complaints and grandmother stories. and doreen too, who gave me endless encouragements and share with me her stories..
and weeho too. for his sincere help and company. and forgiveness too(:
hahas. thanks to my jiemeis! don't worry i will make myself happy de(: don't worry i'll put in my best, my 100% and my all to make it all work out(:
i will work hard!
yup:)

2007-09-28T22:50:00.000+08:00

hey people(:
weeeeeeeees- it's time to play!(:
lols. our long deserved break is finally here.
despite having to juggle it with pw.
it's okay. better than nothing.
lots of things to do..
holidays= morelife= more time for me, myself, friends and family= social life= more time and love for everyone around me!!

was thinking about wad to write for this blog entry.
wanted it to be an emo one since i was emoing at huanyuet's hse. no reason.
don't have high expectations of others. there's a high chance that u'll be disapointed.
when they have unexpected behaviours( in a good way), it gives u the occasionally surprise that one needs to brighten up the day. but sadly... that's really only once in a blue moon. waiting for this surprise act to happen is like waiting for the durian to fall from the tree. dependent on many many factors.
sad.
especially for bgr. it's even more likely the case. alright maybe i'm a pessismist in this sense but i really have very low-confidence in relationships. the more u expect, the more disappointed u will be. that's the way things are..
surprisingly, both jas and jon agree. good
and someone was actually shock that i'm deep enough to think about such issues and and i actually bother to. hahas. told u that i'm as good as hiding myself as u are..
i've been disappointed too many times to allow myself to be disappointed again.
it's not purely based on my own experiences of course, i haven't gone through so much to let me coem to a realisation of all this principles. it's through the many many stories that i've heard. countless of stories. stories of failure, success, happiness, grieve. lots of variety. just that i'm not very much of a story teller. but this's the reason y i can give pple good advice.
arh! self praise..lols. alright..

lols. after exams activities today : lunch at AJISEN ramen, huanyuet's hse.
sian. got stuck at bedok interchange this evening.
walked with jon to the interchange [hahas! now he realise that i'm not as shallow as what he thinks XD ]
anyway the point is that i waited so long for the bus and the bus ride was super long!
crazy. i took almost 2 hours just to reach home from bedok.
oh my. yes. and to make me more fed up. when i just board the bus, jon had alr reached home and finished his dinner!?!?
grrr..
lols.

2007-09-16T23:52:00.000+08:00

FOCUS!
JIAYOU!
GOOD LUCK!(:
Have faith in your self.
Go elaine soh ying ting(:

2007-09-07T16:48:00.000+08:00

To add on to the list of movies i want to watch next holiday:
ATONEMENT
starring Keira Knightly, James McAvoy
it's possibly one of the best classical period drama in years. other than pride and prejudice, which is another great production, also starring keira knightly.
they're both directed by Joe Wright.
wow.
i've just read the reviews. it's an awesome plot. very dramatic. lots of emotions. jealousy. guilt. regrets. love. pain.
kudos to the author of the novel, Ian McEwan.
if u love pride and prejudice as much as i do, u'll definitely like ATONEMENT too.
i think keira knightly still plays the role of a sensible, matured lady, with a mind of her own. a girl with a strong character. stubborn in a way.
cool(:

2007-09-05T08:58:00.000+08:00

i'm kinda back on track already. kinda.
thanks to zy and samuel's constant reminders and pressures.
but i'm not going to blog about stressful things.

here's a little story about me, which i just heard from my grandma yesterday..

A long long time ago, when i was still a little toddler. One day, when my grandma was looking after me while my parents were at work, she realised that my thumb [probably on the right hand, couldn't really rmb now] was stuck onto my palm. That is, i only have 4 free-moving fingers. my thumb was bent inwards towards my palm and i couldn't move it![i guess i was too young to realise that humans are suppose to have 5 fingers instead of 4. hellos?! i couldn't even walk then] so my grandma panicked! She realised the possible consequences of me growing up with 9 fingers instead of 10. so possible disadvantages, limitations. i would probably have been labelled a child with disability. the trauma that i would have to go through. the possible inconvenience that i would have experienced. yes, u may think that this is nothing compared to what other physically disabled people are experiencing. i agree, but sometimes it's only when u look back in time, will u realise how lucky u've been [lucky that certain things happened, lucky that certain people have been there for you, lucky that things took a turn for the better]
on a small scale, if my grandma gave up on me and didn't do anything. possible things that may change:
-i would probably be a leftie today..
-i wouldn't be able to learn piano normally when i was little.
-handbell??! how to hold 4 bells at a time with only 9 normal fingers
-softball?!? how to throw the ball properly or hold the bat properly [actually, i still can't even do it well with 10 fingers]
-most importantly, my self confidence and self-esteem will be much lower than it is today..[which is already very low, though i always tell people to have confidence in themselves]

hrmm.so what exactly happened years ago, to change the way things have become today..
my grandma, patiently took care of my everyday. on top of helping me bathe, feeding me and playing games with me, she consistently pull and tug at my tiny thumb. rotating it, pushing it outwards. ya.. can imagine..
she did that every single day without fail, with patience and determination, after a long long time. my thumb became normal!
yays! so now i've ten normal fingers like everyone else. and after listening to this story, i love my thumb or all my fingers even more. it reminded me that all that i've got today, is something that i must treasure. other than ,looking back in reminiscence, treasuring the things i have now ( both the tangible and intangible ones), i'm motivated to do my very best, to do the best i can to carve out a brighter future, for my own sake and that of everyone else around me, especially my parents and grandma!
`i love my granny!
and everyone else(:

donuts for marion's seventeenth:

and another beautiful production of elaine soh:)

2007-09-03T16:56:00.001+08:00

lols. i''m still eating a lot.
not sure if it's due to the lack of leptin or too much stress.
here's the list.
hotdog bread.yam cake.beancurd. fishball noodles.honeydew pudding. hello panda biscuits. kiwi...and that's only for 2/3 of the day..

my dad's recently in a "let's-have-more-family-outing" mood.
on saturday, it was an outing to changi village for breakfast [which i didn't go cuz i was too busy catching up on my beauty sleep. hello?! 6 a.m. on a saturday morning?]
so after what jon told me on sunday night. i was convinced that i should go along. afterall it's not everyday that my family can go out together right? so ya. i should play my role as a fillial daughter and just tag along.
great(:
so ya. here's a sequel to the changi village outing..
WE'RE GOING TO EAST COAST PARK TMR!
yays! this time i'm going along. i need to exercise! if not i'll be like 52++ [wait maybe i alr am. hrmm]
so exciting. family bonding time(: apparently my dad wants us to go see pple fish in the morning. and later visit my grandma.
cool..

I NEED TO FOCUS
I NEED TO STUDY!
JIAYOU(:

thanks for enduring with my nonsense ramblings last night. tend not to talk sense at midnight.sorry for dishing out all my opinions on you. may not be what u needed to hear. may not even be relevant. but i still went on blabbering..
oops.sorry!

oh my. i'm super irritated with something. hrm. or rather someone.
but can't really put it in words now.
but nvm i've a huge tolerance capacity.
so let's see how long i can maintain before i really get angry.
hrmm .actually, i'll probably forget about this soon
doesn't matter.

anyway! good news. HOUSE season 3!
yays! it's coming on AXN on sept 17th at 10pm.
hahas. awesome. i miss watch house.
watched the trailer/ad alr. seems really nice(:
going to see cameron and house again!
[hrmm.. but i think i'll only watch it after promos la, but that's good too(: ]

2007-09-02T00:36:00.000+08:00

it's saturday today! 1st sept...
time flies so quickly.
21 more days.
stressed!

was doing maths today..
i thought i know how to do..
so i took my own sweet time..
then i realise that got a lot of small mistakes here and there...
everywhere!!!
oh no..

the new show on channel 8 at 7pm is super nice. it's about doctors, who're medical specialist, going on missions to third world countries to volunteer their services, educating the people on issues like epidemic prevention and pre-natal check-ups.
it's a really cool show. it's re-ignited my passion for medicine.
i promise that i'll go on volunteer missions to third world countries like Kenya, if i become a doctor on day!
yes. a girl with great aspirations.
hope that all these will come true one day!(:

oh i finally found out y i've been eating a lot for the past few days..
it's because when one is sleep-deprived. the body may not produce enough of this enzyme call leptin, which actually plays a part in causing a person to feel full.
that's y i keep eating! lols. kk .so must sleep more (:

GOODNIGHT!:)

2007-09-01T13:33:00.000+08:00

Funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song

Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you

2007-08-31T18:27:00.000+08:00

a school built on dreams and aspirations.
one that will always have a place in my heart.
a true blue cedarian
till the very end.

went back to cedar today! saw lots of famliar faces.
i guess it's only when u see that something that has a special place in your heart will u realise that u actually miss it so much.
it's been very much a second home to me.
overflowing with warmth and love.
it's the definition of FAMILY.

saw siewhwee, yangfang, amanda, jas, cher, shiwen, faizah, cheryl, candice, zhiying, jiahui, carmen, teresa, maisha, wenyi, yinyue, dolly
yay! so many 4 p people. lots of teachers too (:
and guess what ms sim is now the vp of cedar! cheers. congrats, ms sim and 4P will always love you!
mrs lim, mdm faridah and mr yau are as cute as before. lols. miss them so much.

went to marina square. had lunch with some of them. then we went to kiddy palace! lols . was cam-whoring outside Kiddy Palace for super long, taking photos of cute lollipop, apples and sweets- on the pillar!
hahas. super funny. It's just the thing that cedarians will do.

I don't really know. The feeling is weird. It's as if i'm another person again.
a person who's not a joker. girly to the max. not really talking sense. sensitive. and the list goes on.
it's a little different from who i am when i'm with victorians. I just realised this. It's not a good thing right?
hrmm..
tsk. oh no. split personality. identity crisis! confusion *cries*

i just realised that some of us are actually pretty similar. as in the "gong-kia" style, girly to an extent, yet sporty. very joke [ as in not that we're entertaining pple who can tell funny stories, but we're the ones who're labelled as the joke]
initially, i thought it was only me, cuz i'm clumsy and blur. but no! the same thing happened to fang too! hahas.

TRANSFORMERS- the very people who had transformed and shaped us into who we are today.

[p.s. i want to watch SECRETS and Ratatouille!!]

JIAYOU(:

2007-08-30T22:09:00.000+08:00

wahh. i'm so sadden by the fact that there're actually so many people don't know me well.
hrmm. it's good in a way when u look at it from the jonathan perspective, cuz people will have less opp to take advaantage of u.
hrm. can't be bothered about that la.
y waste time suspecting if people are plotting against u? if u can use this time to make more friends.

was sitting near harngyi during chem lect. that guy, another one who like to bully/ kajiao me..
so many of them.. nicholas, huanjek, jonathan, yanjie...and the list goes on..
do i have the come and bully me to de-stress face? lols!
anyway, that guy took my file without me knowing and started flipping through my papers [i was so embarrased cuz i don't really like pple looking through my things] and he saw this empty form..
so he started filling it in..
nationality: here
race: 400m hurdles
religion: religious
sex: sexy

it's super funny. can't stand it.
thanks for giving me so many spastic people to entertain me(:
oh and now whenever i walked to the toilet, pass the track board.
i'll burst out in laughter [in a good way]
there's something there that nv fails to cheer me up and entertain me., cuz i find it really hilarious. very cute.
hahas

2007-08-29T22:36:00.000+08:00

oh my. i'm growing fatter by the day. and this is not just some bimbo talk alright. it's the truth. training has stopped. and look at what i ate for the past two days. somemore i had donuts. noodles. currypuff and more noodles. and subway cookies.
going out of shape le...
tsk.

and nic is making me stressed!
hahas. thanks ziyang(:

happy belated seventeen nic a.k.a piggy!
lols. i gave him donuts today, without realising that it was his bday yesterday! lols. i'm so pro! he probably thinks that i'm some psychic. hahas.
bought for huanjek too(:
oh no, so not only am i making myself fat, i'm doing the same to others too! oh no.
hahas.

2007-08-28T22:34:00.000+08:00

i'm so tired. i'm so going to sleep early today. after writing this
i'm soon becoming a pig! XD i ate pattaya rice, nuggets, donuts, spaghetti, sushi and fruits for the second half of the day until now!
plus sweets in between to keep me awake.
argh! sorry for sounding bimbo here. but i'm growing fat!
hahas. and that's two scary words in one sentence, growing and fat.
oh my!

hahas. anyway. i'm going to drop a surprise for hy tmr(: got her her favs. and bought some extras so will give some others a treat too..
will reveal the secret tmr! hahas.my forte

was talking to mega, xiangli and weeho about nug's 20 thousand chickens!
hahas. not that i'm a loudhailer or i like to publicise it. but i still can't get over the shock. imagine owning 20 thousand chickens..
lots of little yellow chicks for your little kids to grow up with..
hahas. totally cool!

i'm so tired!
hahas. looking forward to the surprise tmr! not that i'll be the one surprised but still, it's good to add colours to our sch life right?
occasionally do stuff to brighten up other's day(:
interesting!

2007-08-27T22:43:00.000+08:00

RESIST the urge. MAINTAIN. u know u can do it!
stay focus and on track.

hey people. this is another random emo post so don't bother reading on.

yes. as cliche as it may be, staying happy when u're not is tough.
when u're depressed, stressed, having mood swings, who will be there to understand what u're goin through. do the people u care for, care as much for u? or do they just dismiss all these as frivolous notions that will pass as one's mood changes?
i hate waiting. it's probably one of the few things that i really don't like. next on the list is the lack of trust. i hate it when people suspect me. or even suspect one another. sometimes, it looks silly on the outside. really.
i've learn not to explain too much to pple, if they are programmed not to trust u or take your words seriously, so be it, it probably won't change much even after many attempts at clarifying. it's not really worth the effort to be bothered about such stuff, and to be over-consicous of how people see you.
judge yourself! dont' let yourself feel guilty. u'll be too busy doing this to have time to judge others//

weigh the eggs you have in the basket. know your priorities. come on.
don't be distracted.
things are not like what they seem to be, no matter how much u want these illusions to turn into realities. it's dramatised, exaggerated.
it's self-delusion.

if others don't care then why should u? it's depressing to find out that something that u hold dear to u, something that's important to you, something that has occupied a place in your heart, is actually nothing in the mind of others. imagine that.
do u feel cheated? or do u feel silly?
i feel both.
cheated by myself, silly as a result .

feel like crying now.
but i can't
cuz elaine soh cannot be a crybaby.

JIAYOU. stay strong(:

2007-08-26T22:45:00.001+08:00

it's a sch day tmr(:

yesterday was a very eventful day. butterfly proj and campus superstar(;

butterfly proj
it's such a well-planned and entertaining concert! kudos to jiahao and his team for it. they'd really pro pple performing, hiphop, acappella, jazz, indian dance. there were performances by vj students and vj's band. very cool! we all got to watch the rehearsals which was great except for teh technical glitches. and we got to hear jiahao sing on stage with a girl (the female emcee) hahas. looks scandalous. but actually it's not la. it's obvious that lots of effort has been put in to put the whole concert together and it takes a lot for him to stand up there and sing especially since he's not really a natural and HSM songs are really hard to sing perfectly.
GOOD JOB(:
a very sweet and lovely performance there.
oh. and there was this pianist who played the song from secret. a solo.
wow. it was super beautiful. we all melted in our seats when we heard that. shocked. impressed. amazed and touched.

campus superstar at VJ
lols. we had live screening in sch. i was pretty excited about it before going there. mainly cuz of the people and the food...well and the performance too. GREAT JOB, keely(:
the food was average but ya.. better than nothing.
alright so i was being a joke again..
at the butterfly proj, they were asking for pple to be do reception (i.e. be a receptionist) but i didn't register that in my brain when i first heard it. i was like "me!!", then i went " huh? food ar?" lols. so paiseh. i guess i was too hungry or i was just being a pig.
thinking about food on the job. skiving!
hahas. so in the end when we were doin our duty. ( me. tracey, jas and melly) we were suppose to welcome the GOHs.but before that we started singing! super loudly. at first we were all singing our own songs, separately, then we all started singing some old english songs.together. it's was very nice. but super loud then a guy suddenly turn back and stared at us. oops! lols. girly to the max!hahas. it brings out my "closet-bimbo-ness"

okay. back to vj(:
while watching css, we were having loads of fun. we nv stopped eating once we got off the bus. it was really non-stop eating of junk food. at first it was very sian. cuz we keep walking around the same place, seeing the same pple, same things. and ya. just sian.. then we saw the ct board for keely somewhere, where huanjek and company were standing. so we went there!
hahas. it's super hot there. but very fun. eugene got really high and he started singing along! hahas.and when huanjek sang. it was total omg. own! really. great.
and we saw weiwei on tv! hahas. later weeho, samuel, mel lim came..
hahas. then we all got super high. cheer and shout like mad. like nobody's business. hahas. yes.. unglam to the max. but it's okay .
weeho started the big orange balloon frenzy and he started goin crazy about it! the word crazy jsut had a new definition.
huanjek left in a flash.
hrm.. things just got crazier after that cuz we all wanted our full day!
but in the end, though she didn't win the grandfinals, it was a great battle fought. good job. another proud victorian affair of the year.
we still got our full day! (:
and i got joker to sing xi jie for me! hahas. not yet, but soon i guess. soon...
looking forward to it(:

JIAYOU FOR TMR!

2007-08-24T23:13:00.000+08:00

today's friday(:
yay. the everybody-stay-up-late day.
hahas. super high today. cuz i'm very happy.
to make the others jealous! i just received a big green card from my dear buddy! yays! so sweet. got lots of stickers inside too. those that we bought together. hahas.
it reminded me of how lucky i am to get her as my buddy.
luckily it's her. if not how am i going to survive 18 days in a totally strange environment, zero friends.
it's like putting a fresh water fish in sea water. how is it going to survive without it's oxygen tank!

lols. softball training today was super fun. i think that training at vj is more useful. see? i prefer familiar settings. hahas. trained in gym today. veyr good. now i realise that i look weird when i bat. hahas. good opp to correct swing and posture.
ya. so when i was batting somebody had to stand in line with me in front of the mirror. and block my view! hahas. joker! stand in front of me when i'm looking in the mirror. hahas.so i went " pss. pss. 'scuse me" and he didn't hear. joker(:
afterwhich we did some throws before going home. first step to greater improvement. stronger arms. which apparently i don't have.
so ya.
need to throw properly in a more balanced way. at least i know that the others were like that when they first started. that's y i cannot throw far.
news: weehao's the rj softball capt! oh my, i was super shock. my friend for 11 years and i didn't know that he's so pro. the hamburger has grown up(: so proud of it. even though it's not me. but ya.
very cool. good job(:

thanks loads to CZY for pressuring and nagging at me(: i think it's working.at least a little. JIAYOU ba!

i have so many stories to tell. hahas. feel like a loud hailer. but in a good way la. not back stabbing wad. just neutral stories.
sian.
i'm such a boring person.
so bored.
nothing more to talk about
...

oh yay! tmr's BUTTERFLY PROJ!
yay! doing good things again. will do this before going back to vj at 9 to cheer for keely(:
yay. so i get to help hospice patients raise funds and also cheer for a fellwo victorian.
hahas. and get to eat ice-cream, popcorn.
and spend the saturday night with my friends.
eat and talk and play and cheer.

but dunno whether my classmates going anot..

see.
sian again..

2007-08-22T22:57:00.000+08:00

today is one scary day. it started out fine...
until the chem lect test. yes. it was expectedly hard!i didn't do the whole free radical subt part and i had ridiculous ans for the enthalpy change part. every one was laughing at my ans la.
joke.
it's like a pre-exam warning, telling us to study even harder for it.
i need pple to pressure , nag and push me on .
volunteers pls!?

i'm so tired. i know i shouldn't be complaining or whining, but i really am. though i slept at 10 plus 11 for the past few nights, i've been waking up a lot cuz of mosquitoes and all..
super sleepy..

anyway, i had training together. lols.
this's the part that really proves y hj was right about me being a joker.
training today was at vj(: and we did the usual toss and throws [i love throws though i still throw in a weird ballerina way that hinders me from throwing properly] did footwork and exercises for warm up.
so for the whole training, here's the list of things that they said i looked like:
1. starfish
2.some dancer doing line-dance /chacha [that was during the footwork exercise cuz i just learnt how to do it. hahas,yay! could do it after the first or second time hehs XD]
3.ballerina [when i'm doing throws cuz i keep leaning forward, stretch out my hand and stick my back leg up after throwing. yes, weird position i know!]
4.squidward. when we're doing cooling down exercises, and we're suppose to shake our arms and legs while running]
5. model [cuz my back leg is always straight in the final position. KNEES BENT!]

wow.so many personalities in 2-3 hrs. lols. non-stop entertainment!. the others couldn't stop laughing. grr. ya. so now i'm the joke.
lols. pls la.i'm seriously not funny.i'm super boring de. cannot talk to me. it'll be an awkward silence after about 5 mins.
i'm not a joke! really, i wasn't like that before, my darlings will know(:
personal declaration: i'm not entertaining!

so let me bask in glory for 5 secs. yay! i can do the bat holding thing for 1 minute plus plus le! hahas. good improvement considering that i could only do about 20 secs last week..hahas!

okay. the key thing that spoilt my day.
i was just standing there. having a water break. "entertaining" the others. then suddenly someone shouted "watch!" okay. so i moved and dodged before i had time to look at the ball. and guess wad. it was like i needed to prove further that i was a natural joke. i moved to a position such that when the ball hit the wall and rebound. it hit the back of my head!
ouch! it was jaws dropping pain. a softball thumped at the back of your head.and guess wad.the thrower was a guy! he was super lucky that we didn't know who he was..
lols.i shall not publicise gay's story here, but it's super funny too. she got "injured" because of it too. indirect.
mine was a direct okayy. super pain.so pain until i couldn't whine or scream in pain. i was silent for the next 5 mins..
so suay. i dodged the direct hit but the rebound ball hit me. wahh. i'm still feeling giddy now. dunno it's cuz i'm tired or wad..
so now do i have the right to complain!
i super can maintain okay!.
i kept quiet through out, pain oso nv make noise.

wah. like a ball magnet like that. when i'm the catcher oso not so lucky, that the ball will auto come to me...

very pain! until can cry. but luckily and thank god that it's not a direct hit by a guy thrower/fielder. and it's not the real hard softball, but it's hard enough la.
having training in vj on fri too(: at the back of the hall.
i love training in vj(:

ohh.and i got hit in the leg too. now there's one red spot there.wahh. very pain oso. this one's by the REAL ball. so ya. super pain but insignificant compared to the other one.
wahh.i dunno what's wrong with me today eh. got hit by balls. can only catch like 75% of the balls.
argh!

confirm wil have muscle aches tmr de. but that's okay. just hope that my head won't hurt and there're no after-effects.hope so.
i've got other things to focus on.
PROMOS! jiayou(: i really hope that i can do very well in the promos!
hahas. self-motivation again..

to my darling yingfang(: HAPPY SEVENTEENTH

2007-08-19T17:16:00.000+08:00

heyys!
good news(: i've packed all my papers!!! and this time. it's for real. everything. yays! i'm so proud of myself XD and to those who know how messy i am, u should be proud of me too!
hahas
zi-high...

anyway. with a very much neater room. i can now seriously start studying. (:

was talking to zongyan just now. even he's studying. oh my.
i think i should follow suit too
jiayou!

hahas. it's like a sudden burst of motivation. yays! good.

anyway, go listen to HSM(II) songs! nice. highly recommended(:

you're the music in me.
is the the real you that i see? tell me it is(:

2007-08-18T23:38:00.000+08:00

it's almost 12 midnight..
i'm sian ttm! there's no one to talk to online. or rather got nothing to talk about. nothing to do. NOTHING!

anyway, today's a relatively productive day for me. so ya(:

okayy .so today i shall talk about kindergarten kids.
similiar to one of the lines in HSM,
it's amazing to see how some of us can become close friends despite knowing each other for just a short period of time. just like in kindergarten, where kids sit together and they start talking. there's trust between them. that's when human don't suspect each other. though they just met long ago, they've lots to tell each other. endless stories, one after another...
it's like as if people forgot to put their "masks" on. i don't mean that it's a bad thing. how do we know that we'll be accepted by each other? how is it that we're suddenly, momentarily not afraid of being judged? how is it that we know that we can trust each other enough to confide in each other?
i guess it's all a kind of feeling, intuition..
it's precisely because such feelings are hard to define, hence the mystery of it all, makes it beautiful.
it's a special kind of friendsihp, it like the kind of bond between little kids.
it's a bond that's hard to find now, especially when u don't know exactly what people have on their minds (not that i don't trust pple around me, i still very much do) and u know that u're bound to be judged by others.
explainable..
but it'll be something special that i'll treasure..
but hopefully it wouldn't end or disappear just like that in a twinkle of the eye..

i really don't like the times when i'm emo, or in a bad mood.
everything just seem awfully bad..
sometimes i laugh out loud, or smile widely, just to cheer myself up, to forget about the bad stuff, to forget about how lousy i am, to conceal all my sadness.
but all these does not amount to being a hypocrite, no. 1, cuz i don't do it often and when i do it, i'm not really me..
it's cuz i don't want pple to worry about me, i don't like to trouble pple unnecessarily, it makes me feel even worse. it's about staying strong or at least pretend for the moment. i don't like pple to worry about me. [lols, heyy, i'm the nanny, so i should be the one looking after and caring for pple, not the other way round right?] sometimes, a little gesture to show that u're concern it's enough. show that u'll be there.a little care is enough, frankly too much of it makes me feel weird, uncomfortable and guilty.

the fortune teller says i've a strong character and it clashes with my name, so it's not very good.
i dunno what to do about it. sometimes, it may all be a matter of perspective, how u look at things around u and just try to react naturally, just be who u really are (:

pple say that i look like a confi person. hey. the word is look like. but in actual fact am i? i dunno. maybe. sometimes. hopefully(:
but occasionally, i really have super low self-esteem. so the seemingly confi outlook is actually not true. so i have to be optimistic if not i'll really be a emo and depressed kid. keep reminding myself that i'm very luckily alr and to treasure all that i already have(: yes. and it's this optimistic outlook that keeps me going. the be gratefuk for wad u have and u'll be surprised that u actually have a great deal of wonderful stuff and u ought to be a happy person just because of that. we've our family, friends, achievements, experiences, aspirations and many more..
so ya. smile and embrace all these.
tmr will be a better day(:
it's so unbecoming of an "ice-princess" to say all these, but it's wad i feel. so ya..
i don't really like that name anyway.
shall make another proclaimation: i'm not dao!! must i emphasise more on it? grr.

alright, shall go and sleep le, before i go on and talk about more weird stuff about myself. i'm such a weirdo.
joke.

jiayou for tmr(:

2007-08-16T17:55:00.000+08:00

it's really heartening to see how people around you are actually so sensitive, caring and magnanimous.
being able to take a broad perspective in time of chaos is certainly a one of the remarkable qualities that one can possibly possess.
i was too blinded by what's on the surface, and neglected what's on the inside. Being able to stay objective, calm and matured, even when almost everyone around is bombarding you with their opinions, is certainly something that i've got to learn. conflict management. sometimes things aren't just the way they seem to be. there're lots of room for possible misunderstanding no matter how hard u try to avoid them..
not being influenced, yet at the same time being exposed to a spectrum of opinions is a skill to be acquired as one matures over the years. how do you actually discern what's right and what' s not? by observing the details , by feeling, by experiences and by thinking smart and logically.
Matters have been blown out of proportion recently causing all parties involved to be hurt at least to a certain extent. it's time to let the matter die down..
it may just be a misunderstanding like what someone pointed out to me. and i kind of agree too. to an extent
but whatever the case, whether it's a genuine hidden intention or just an insensitive mistake. we're still learning. just learn from the mistake.. FORGIVE AND FORGET.

as an outsider, a friend, that's all i can say (:

anyway, to continue on a positive note..thanks alot to s56 for the very very wonderful belated birthday present(: thanks dear. i like it a lot. thanks again for putting in so much effort to look for it. lols. so now when i look at myself in the little mirror every morning, i'll see u guys too(: hahas great.
special thanks to doreen and jaslyn. my ever special "bimbo and bitch" hahas..in a good way..
- ms BISCUIT(:

after listening to what someone said..as usual. i feel guilty again. lols. jonathan's been training 5 times a week. "overworking his muscles" le. he's muscles must have been aching that's y he's walking with a slight limp. yet he's never complained before. but me? a noob? always complain of aches after gym. make so much noise. aiyo..
hrmm. i feel so bad about this. but nvm must learn from my bro's spirit and don't complain, just do it

though im feeling sian and tired now. but i'm very happy because of all the things today(:

love you guys loads.

jiayou(:!!!

p.s. to huanjek!(:
yay! i got the webcam and mic le! can use skype soon .i think. so ya..mass convo(:
smile and don't black face(:

2007-08-15T22:24:00.000+08:00

hellos!
today's the chiong pw day.
just finished my part of the WR..
super tired le..haven't had the time to really start studying yet. maybe tmr..hopefully(:
stayed up late almost everynight...

really laughed a lot today.thanks to miss ong weeho! hahas..super funny.actually i dunno whether this is a matter to be laughed at or not.. but i guess so long as it doesn't hurt anyone it's ok..is it? hrmm.actually for this it's good to just have a good laugh about it and get over it. that's the weeho style. lols.

lots of things to do.i've a long list of things to do..
stressed..
must really get down to doing my work soon.
SERIOUSlY soon...

for training today. we went to TK. but only to find out that coach wanted us to do gym! argh. could have done it in sch. poor wingyan, bernice and grace cuz they've already been doing gym for the past 2 days. [hehs. i didn't go for gym cuz i'd something on] and that explains y they're all stronger than me. at least most of them. in arm strength...
climbed 4storeys- 7 flights of stairs x10
situps
jump knees.
rolly polly.
squats with weights.
machine [arm and thigh]

the one that i don't like the most.. which is also the one that i super cannot do it the machine whereby u lie down and push the weights up. lols. i just can't do it. can barely do 4 sets of 10. barely.. same for rolly polly. barely did 15..
that means 15 not-very-proper ones.
luckily we didn't have abs workout. if not it'll be another one that i can't do...

2007-08-14T23:19:00.000+08:00

there're a couple of things lately.
i don't really know wad should be the correct way to deal with it.these are probably the senarios which proves that life isn't always straightforward and in many situations , there's really no right or wrong..
so i wonder..
can someone tell me wad to do? wad's the right way to go about doin it..
hrmm.

it's scary to see how much u don't know about a person even he's so close to you. so much uncertainty. it will probably teach people not to trust others fully especially when u don't know them that well..
ok..here again..elaine's confused..
should i still be thhe girl who always give people the benefit of doubt. i believe i should. all my friends are entitled to my trust. despite knowing that you may betray my trust, i'll still give u my unwavering trust. for a simple reason that i don't like the feeling of suspecting people. i know what's going on... but it's a matter of choice. i choose not tobe affected by wad i know as of yet..
don't force me into thinking that this world's a scary place.
i don't want to accept it...
trust is my first present to all my friends, a present that shall not be taken back...

anyway.back to minding my own business..
hahas. yanjie always sound so philosophical.. like a daddy like that which is good in a way. never fails to remind me of some impt things i've forgotten. emphasised some points. reinforced it in me .thanks bro!

need to start studying le. but really don't seem to have the time..
must jiayou!(:
everybody oso must jiayou together..

victoria, lisa, mingkai, zongyan, frank:
ohmy. i miss the taiwan exhange students so much..nothing much has changed since the day she left...
there's still an extra cup in the bathroom..
one more pillow and bolster on my bed..
it all reminded me of lisa, the times we spent together.. the times when i was not alone..a companion. a friend. and confidante in a way...

i cut my hair le..hahas..it's a bit of a log news.sorry..
hrmm.i thought it was okay..average la..
but all the guys say very ugly..esp huanjek and kenji...grr. and yanjie too!!
hahas
it's okay..

GOODNIGHT(:

2007-08-12T00:25:00.001+08:00

heyys!
it's been days since lisa and gang left s'pore. i thought i wouldn't cry since i was once the ice princess. still. i did. at the airport i was "owned" by the ice queen herself, meiching. so the princess cried and the queen didn't. good job man.
i hate all these departures. i don't like that feeling of someone dear leaving. it makes me feel lonely, empty, cold, quiet.
i can't bear to part with my buddy and the other taiwanese
but i was also sad to be separated from the other vj tippers.
from that day onwards, we'll not be in contact anymore..
till nov.
me, huanjek, kenji, shannon, nicholas and meiching...
when we see each other along the corridor, at most we give each other a smile. but that's it. like hj said, he may even dao us, instinctively cuz he's like that..

i miss everyone! vjtippers and buddies..
i've been a good host (at leaat average) to lisa, so it's a good job done. no regrets! good job(:

everyone's back in their original position, ready to chiong for the exams.
so i'll be starting tmr too.
jiayou!! (:

2007-08-06T22:39:00.000+08:00

i'm stressed. busy. tired. listless. and sick.
okay. for one, i've a lot of revision to do.. volunteers to teach me pls!!and will miss lessons for tmr's e7cluster duty. won't be able to make it for training this week. and need to prepare for farewell reception tmr! and i'm broke...when it's only monday...
*sob*
and i haven't thought of wad to bring for tmr's farewell reception...
don't think i should go out anymore except thurs (to kenji's hse).
really need the time off to rest. pack .organise and study.
for the past week it has been really eventful. met and got to know many great people. super nice and smart.
activities for the past week
-dinner at marina bay + fireworks show + shopping + fountain of wealth
-lunch at nippon village-tampines
-italian spaghetti for dinner
-dinner at chomp chomp
-dinner at grand copthorne waterfront
-clarkequay and esplanade for BAYBEATS rock gig and dinner at Makansutra...
-iceskating and pool at jurong, lunch there...
-shopping at orchard (fareast)
-bowling at kovan
-bah kuteh dinner at balestier
-dinner at thaipan

c what i mean by eventful? and now u know y i'm so tired.
sorry if i've been stoning or dao for the past week. weirui's sick too..lots of tippers are sick. but we won't tell our buddies about it la, if not they'll have to take care of us,worry for us and it's alr their last few days here le(:
things will get better next week(: yes it will~

jiayou!!

`ilove TIP'07
-a vj tipper

2007-08-01T22:55:00.000+08:00

TIPPER

yes, i'm super busy recently because of TIP. i don't even have time to sit down properly and do my work. so i'm going to do it tmr!! alright. thurs. no slacking le. jiayou!! (: need to borrow lecture notes to refer to. do tutorials. go for lessons. council stuff (northlight and e7cluster). softball training..

kk. i got to know 2 very interestign people through TIP, as in the vj people. one, it's nicholas. to no surprise, he likes to pick on my faults and bully me too. suan me. lols. but he's pretty on, friendly and gentlemanly. he even treat me a drink when i was just joking. lols. great, anyway cuz i also call him pig/ zhuzhu, so that kind of make up for all the suaning from him. next is yeejek, i barely know him 3 days and i've been fortunate enough to be a recipient of his kind gestures. yes, everyone can be nice, but the reality is not every one is, cuz they can choose not too. seriously, his gentlemanliness (don't think there's such a word) can easy own many people i know. and that kinda makes me feel guilty. though he's a quiet guy and seemingly an introvert but he's definitely cheesy and spastic on the inside. ya. cheesy, spastic, lame, joker. whatever u call it. to me, he's like a combination of jonathan and zijie. very like the two of them.though all three of them are unique in their own ways:) both yj and jon has saved me time and again from my own blurness, people who were there when i'm blur/gong. people whom i really feel grateful to. and people whom i think i can rely on. and people i can bully and suan(:

TIP buddy! she's lianxin-lisa. yups. a really cute taiwanese. hope that we'll all have the same buddies when it's our turn to go overseas. i don't want to change partner..
she's very nice, very sweet, but blur like me. she's always MIA. that's y i always lose her. as in can't find her or don't know where she is. c? it's not entirely because of my blurness that i can't find her k? i'm not that blur. it takes two hands to clap. anyway, she veyr amused by the way singaporeans speak chinese, the sentence structure and the way we speak. lols. and i often tell her stories about singapore, about the people i know and those around us. we went shopping and food hunting during the weekend. firworks. shopping. korean food. cheecheongfun. dumplings, chweekueh. japanese food. spaghetti. more shopping. rojak. fruit cake. stingray. chendol. satay. hokkien prawn mee. popiah.grass jelly. we watched drama serials together too. hahas. c?it's never boring when u stay with me. lols. oh and yeejek told her about the past when victorians always tend to like cedarians last night. lols. when i wasn't there with them .ya. quite random but at least got some links.
and i can't believe i told yj about my eyecandy! oh no. and he doesn't believe me when i said that i don't have an eyecandy now.. really.moreover i don't have the time to. it was just a short stint. an infatuation i guess. luckily i got a cab soon after that so he can't nag me about it. hellos! i'm serious when i say that it's not true anymore. and it's good that he doesn't seem to rmb it today. hehs. good. escaped...

anyway, i was ushering for careers fair today,so i sat in to listen to them. very motivating.
must study le!!
jiayou!

2007-07-28T10:18:00.000+08:00

hellos!
yay! i'm meeting my taiwanese buddy today! (: hehes. so excited. lols. it's so unfair, winston alr know who his buddy is already, but the all the victorians still don't..hrmm. keeping us in suspense i guess..

anyway, because today's college day, so we were dismissed at 11 yesterday! hahas.cool .and we went to PS as a class for lunch then me, hy, zhuangyan , james and jonathan went to play pool at meridien. before that, we were all running in the rain + *eh-hem* jay-walking to get to the place, then before we even get to play, zhuangyan had to leave for his driving course. so sad.so that leaves me with the "wong-spirit" people. yup, then we started playing. hy & jon, james and i. yups. we lost the first and won the second. james was a really good partner cuz he was encouraging all the while. then they started say that i was very dao and serious when i'm playing.c? this's what will happen when i'm not smiling and concentrating. lols. proudest achievement of the day: james and i won hy and jonathan!!!! HAHAHAs. noobs thrashing the pros. great. and i scored 8 out of the 9 balls (including that black one) hahas. and i'm position 1 and 3 on jon's puzzle bobble. XD
yes, i agree with doreen!!hy was super mummy yesterday (: took care of the whole group of us.hahas.very sweet..
hy and i beat jon and james too(: cheers for girl power!

then whe hy and i left for home, jon and weeho went for candlelit! lols.so cool.. i oso want to go(: perhaps on national day la..

got to go and take council photo le..

2007-07-26T17:55:00.000+08:00

yays!my taiwanese buddy is coming over in 2 days time. and guess wad, winston and i got buddies from the same sch! cool.

anyway, i realise that i also wait for my bad mood to clear up before i start blogging, if not i wouldn't even be in the mood to form proper sentence, not to say, a blog entry.
i was super angry just now (well, it's a bit of an exaggeration, but u get the point) ya. i think that a person shouldn't impose his mindset on others. there are bound of be numerous issues where many people can adopt various viewpoints. but that does not call for you to argue unreasonably back and attempt to force your point of view on others and try to influence them right? in a cosmopolitan city, it's inevtitable to meet people with contrasting viewpoint and the right way to deal with it is probably to express wad u think and just accept other's prespective as it is right? there's no definite right or wrong to many issues in this world. so who is to say that he point of view is the most appropriate one? hellos! you're not the only person in this whole wide world. i guess it's only right to be more accepting of differing view points while at the same time be firm on your own...

training tmr... got to do more batting. i've onyl got half of wingyan's standard..and it's super bad.. so ya..more practice girl!

msot importantly!! i need to start studying hard! jiayou! stay awake , stay focused and concentrate! jiayou(:

2007-07-23T20:59:00.000+08:00

24th July entry (edited)

thanks a lot to those people who tagged on my board last night when i was feeling really down and emo. love you guys.
i'm pretty much back to my normal self again today(: c, i told you i was just pms-ing. lols. and like wad jaslyn says, i'm *eh-hem* a very forgiving person. so ya. let bygones be bygones and we're all friends again. cool(:
so now im back to being bullied by them again. uncool.

anyway.
I need to chiong and do my EOM. We're suppose to hand it up tommorow. so even though i don't really feel like doing it, it is something that is really really very very, extremely important. so i've got to get it done by tonight. and must put in my 101% in it. jiayou!

as for school today, there was spot check in the morning. lols. just as the seniors predicted it to be, just that it's not on thurs. anyway, it's quite weird to see people get caught for no rhyme or reason. okay, so there was actually reasons bahind why some people was caught, but in some cases,the actions by the teachers seem to be unjustified. like jon's hair, xl's badge, joc's earing. hrmm. there're just small little stuff that do not call for drastic measures right?
so after the spot check, we had PE. We had body jam lessons which was basically dance-cum-aerobics. hahas. the actions seemed a little gay intially though, but xl sure had fun during the session. hahas. that mambo-cum-drama queen.
the rest of the day was just like any other tues, except that PW was cancelled and we got to go hoem earlier. yays! good for people like me who have to do their EOM.and also for people like jon who ought to visit the doc asap!!

anyway, i watched 1 more disc of the rainie yang show. i still don't know what is its english title. hey! c? i do watch taiwanese drama k? i'm not as ang-moh pai as you think i am! (: lols. anwyay the show's really nice. it's funny, cute, hilarious, comical, entertaining, amusing and the list goes on...
Mike He's acting in the show too XD [ pardon me but i can't help but say that he's so super shuai]
it's the kind of show that my darlings will like to watch too. hahas. cool.
i like rainie in the show because of her character, which in soem aspects are quite similiar to mine, so i can understand how she feels in the show. she's a person who is very blur and sometimes gets into trouble here and there because of it. but inspite of being a gongkia [a very cute one], she strongly believes that she can make it on her own. she's of the perspective that if one in face of adversity just stand there, whine and hope that a kind soul or prince charming will lend a helping hand, then one will never be able to progress far. one will have to pick oneself up, stand up on one's own two feet and dash towards that finishing line with conviction, faith, determination and a focused mind.yes, it is wad i believe in too.
don't run away or escape bacause of fear as it will eventually catch up with you.

2007-07-15T14:38:00.000+08:00

here's a little something about Cancerians...
i thought that it's super accurate. so to all the cancerians who're reading this, tell me if u think it's true or not.

Deeply intuitive and sentimental, Cancerians can be one of the most challenging of the zodiac to get to know. Emotion runs strong for this sign, and when it comes to family and home, nothing is more important. Sympathetic and empathic, Cancerians are greatly attuned to those around them. Devotion is the key word for this sign, making them wonderfully warm, sensitive people to be around.

Friends and Family
Traditional and maternal, Cancerians make excellent parents. In fact, all aspects of family are number one to this sign. This can be seen in the homes they make and in the dedication to duty they display. Cancerians are often willing to overlook personality conflicts when it comes to family, simply because they are related. Whatever needs to be done, you can count on a Cancerian to go the distance for a family member. They are deeply sentimental and are diligent about keeping family albums and history intact. Passing on stories to the next generation is a favorite pastime.

When it comes to friendships, the Cancerian is very helpful. They're almost always willing to lend a hand, providing it doesn't conflict with family obligations. Friends are held in high regard and are generally of like mind. Because the Cancerian generally prefers the home scene rather than going out, folks that enjoy visiting and sharing activities such as cards or at-home dining are top picks for buddies. While their deeply intuitive, heart-not-head personality makes Cancerians very sympathetic, it can also make them a little hard to understand. Time is the cure for this!

Career and Money
The Cancerian can be as tenacious as they are sensitive. When there's a job to do, they roll up their sleeves and get to it. They especially shine when performing caregiving or related tasks, and make excellent nurses. Other career ambitions can include housekeeper, gardener, and journalist. A Cancer's love of country gives them the base to being an outstanding politician. The need to feel as though they are making a difference, however small, is essential for this sign to feel fulfilled.

Security is of the utmost importance to the Cancerian, and money is no different. Making money generally comes easily, and putting it away is usually what happens. Cancerians are not overspenders; in fact, they are far more apt to invest a few dollars and make their money grow. Many Cancer personalities see money as a symbol of their status in life and are inspired to build up healthy bank accounts as a result. Cancers are resourceful and manage their time and money well.

Love and Sex
"I feel" is the key phrase for Cancer, and this is all too evident when it comes to love. Tender and gentle, the Cancerian will show sensitivity with their lovers without a second thought. They love readily and choose a mate who can understand them as much as possible. Superficial or overly ambitious partners are not well suited. The Cancerian will look for someone who is equally as intuitive as they are. They are devoted partners, love children, and marry for life.

CANCER TIDBITS

Health
Each sign has a part of the anatomy attached to it, making this the area of the body that is most sensitive to stimulation. The anatomical areas for Cancer are the breast, stomach, and the upper liver.

Ruling Planet
The ruling planet for Cancer is the Moon. Considered representational of the feminine, it rules women in general. Further, the Moon governs instincts, moods, tides, personal interests, desires, needs, magnetism, growth, the need to touch, consciousness, and fertility.

Color
The color of choice for Cancer is silver.

Gemstone
Cancer's star stone is the Pearl.

Lucky Numbers
Cancer's lucky numbers are 4 and 6.

Compatibility
Cancerians are most compatible with Scorpio and Pisces.

Opposite Sign
The opposite sign of Cancer is Capricorn.

The Perfect Gift
The best gifts for a Cancer are collectibles or an item for the home.

Likes
Family, hobbies, house and home, parties

Dislikes
Opposition, failure, being told what to do, advice (good or bad)

House
Natural sign of the Fourth House. This house rules home, endings, property, a parent, foundation, and the latter part of life.

Famous Cancerians
Robin Williams, Sylvester Stallone, Princess Diana, John Glenn and Phyllis Diller

--source: msn astrology(:

anyway, i had a very wonderful 17th birthday yesterday(: thanks to many people, those who sent me a msg, dropped me a msg on the tagboard and my dear classmates who came for the dinner at marina bay yesterday(: the food was great, we've many many great cooks like chef wong, chef yanjie and chef jocelyn. and even samuel can cook too!! kk. actually the only lousy cook is me la. i burnt 5 hotdogs, afterwhich i decided to keep off the bbq platter and just eat other stuff. dolly should be glad that i'm not in her culinary club.i'll probably be more of a destroyer than a cook there. so ya. [oh. but in the end i still got to eat hotdogs thanks to jon aka chef wong :) ] lols. it was suppose to be 13 bucks per person but all thanks to samuel, we only had to pay 12!!! me. jon and joc didn't thought that it was possible but he did it. wooah... *applause* it was a very fun class dinner, where we ate, joked and watched fireworks together. the atmosphere was awesome and the place was really crowded. the fireworks which appeared to be just in front of us was super beautiful ( thanks to the auntie whom samuel sucked up to who gave us the good seats(: } and it was precisely because of the fireworks that my hotdogs got burnt. see? u should nv be distracted when u cook. lols
we ate a lot of weird stuff yesterday but everyone went home full, satisfied and happy. my two freaky bros kept eating ice-cream and they took half the time i took to finish an icecream! i think they ate about 2-3 sticks.crazy people.lols.and jon was trying to show me that one can actually eat the prawns with its shell. wow, live demonstration, crazy guy. yesterday was the first time he wasn't late, so that's good. keep it up! oh, and ziyang kept eating the "sharksfin" lols. so funny! about 3 bowls i think. hahas.funny people! and i bet that made jon jealous, cuz at first he wanted to eat it too, and i guess the little girl queuing before him didn't like his dao face, so she took more and leave nothing to jon! hahs! even the little girl's on my side:)

pics from yesterday..

me, jocelyn and her yummy red bean ice-cream(:

french fries!!!

on the bus. ultimate dao! my beloved brothers...

flying saucer! arh!!! (eh-hem, it's cause of our lousy photographer jonathan)

internal conflict! ah-bish!

2007-07-09T21:54:00.000+08:00

heyys!
SOFTBALL
today's my second training of the term. yays! i got my first softball glove today and trained with the sec 3s. they're really nice people, very encouraging , helpful and motivated lot of people. since coach didn't have time for me today, i was allocated to this sec3 girl [i guess her name is chloe or something], so she's kind of like the mini coach for me for this training. i had to do throws and catch again, revised what i learnt last week. it was quite boring though but it's an inevitable part of training, one has to learn the skills and techniques well before getting on the field right? so ya. practised my throws with Ms Tay and my mini coach (: then i tried flyball and batting!! yays! finally i get to touch the bat. Batting's really a hard skill to pick up.i needed a lot of strength in the left hand for that cuz we're suppose to "lead" the bat with the left hand instead of right, and since it's quite different from conventional swings, i'd to spent quite a lot of time practising the stokes. so while they are on the field playing the actual game, i was watching at the side, practising my batting. Playing on the field is one of the things that i want to achieve, learning and practising the techniques is already a baby step towards it.
cheers!
jiayou!

i got back my chemistry and physics results today. i'm quite satisfied with the results though i think that there's still lots of room for improvement.hey! but don't most things in the world have lots of room for improvement. No one's perfect. and by the word "no one" ,i really mean no one. the alarm bell has just rung for me to buck up and work hard to achieve better results and performance in everthing i do, this is just the beginning :)

taiwan immersion! yay! i'm so excited that my taiwanese buddy is coming to s'pore soon. but now, my mum seems to have qualms about me participating in the programme. she's afraid that it'll be too much of a hassle for a stranger to be with us for 18 days. well, since i'm alr in the prog, i wouldn't want to give up at the last minute so all i can say to her is relax, we'll solve those problems as they come along. don't worry so much now. smile mummy! (:

lols. now when i'm listening the song "umbrella" , it reminds me of weeho![stop gaying around!!! lols] that imba guy! i shall not elaborate on his glorious achievements here. good job man!

Doreen:that msg has really has no hidden meaning.SERIOUSLY! lols. i didn't know that u'll be so serious about it. it was just a casual remark, REALLY. told you i'm a person of multiple facades. there're many things about me that u haven't found out.[hrmm..sounds familiar? quote from jon actually. not word for word though]

i love the new avril song! nice, i've always loved her songs. the song from kelly clarkson's new album is pretty good too-it doesn't hurt

mon-training,
tues-pw.
wed-council meeting, TIP first general meeting, training.
thurs-buy present for jonathan and yanjie,
fri- celebrate their bday and go for training.
sat- BE HAPPY!

ouch. i'm having muscle aches now. i'm suppose to pocket the ball, not really catch it. but that's what i'm doing now, catching the balls with my left hand, so now it hurts! esp my palm. it's because i'm not used to catching the ball by "pocketing" it yet i guess. grr.. got no strength to drive the ball with my bat when my left hand's like that. just got to massage more and rest well...
being in softball also means that i have to put in more effort in my studies! jiayou! i really hope i can do well in my studies at the end of the day!:) able to balance both will be my goal.
the feeling of having a clear aspiration/goal is wonderful, moving ahead in a specific direction, working hard for the things u love, for the things u hope to achieve and of course, working hard for the sake of yourself and the people u love(:

my siganture white-silver bag is breaking apart. oh no! i don't want to change my bag. i forgot to get my uncle to buy the pink puma bag for me from the states. so now i don't have a replacement! so how?! i don't want a replacement, i love my bag. kinda attached to it [lols. sounds psycho]

2007-07-07T21:58:00.000+08:00

heyys!
it's 070707 today(:
Happy Birthday amanda!

yays! countdown to "me-being-17" : 1 week (:

haven't really thought of wad to do on that day. really want to do something memorable on that day. but i don't think i'll be going for the photo-taking thing unless fang, ver and shh are going for it. and shh won't be free on that day, so i'll probably not be celebrating with them..
as for my class, everyone seems to be busy at the moment, so not much plans is made yet. haven't really thought much about it since i've been really busy this week too...

double yays! Harry potter and the order of phoenix is conming soon. going to watch it with my bro. really looking forward to it(:

On the first day of school, i thought that our mid-year exams results will be given out this week, so i went to school feeling all nervous and tensed up. hahas. really funny when u come to think about it. eventually, we were told that results will only be released by next week. except for maths. so ya...
as for the only subject result that i got back this week.. and that's Maths.
(: i'm satisfied with what i've got since i spent slightly less than 2 weeks on it..

kind of miss reading yanyi's blog and the handbell blog too... it's been dead for a pretty long time le...
talking about reading people's blog.. hahas. jaslyn's blog has recently became a must-read because of the entry on xiangli.lols. interesting!

this's quite a shocking news. i got into softball! considered a good news for me i guess.. but that also means that i need to put in more effort into time-management.
jiayou!(:

2007-06-28T23:48:00.000+08:00

waoh. it's been a long time since i last blogged.
great. lots of things happened and is going to happen..
mid-years are just over.
and everyone is busy celebrating. lols. having class outing at joc's hse tmr. let's just hope that enough people turn up so that we can officially call it a CLASS outing.
because of this class outing. i won't be going out with shh, ver, julie and jess. on their shopping trip!!!!so sad..
i haven't seen them in ages and i've tonnes of stuff that i want to buy!!

things that i need to buy asap
1. camera
2.fbt
3.slippers
sounds weird. but ya. that's it.
going for family gathering on saturday because my uncle just came back from the states.
on sunday, it's eugene's birthday party:) hahas. finally it's 1st july...

yay! so finally i get my long-awaited break after the exams. really need to rest because i think that things will change quite a lot in term 3.many things will be ongoing. hrmm. hope that i'll still have time for outing with my darlings! miss them so much during the holidays!
got to be prepared for the changes. though i've no idea what they may be.

movies!
i want to watch TRANSFORMERS! haven't watched that genre of movie for a very very long time. not really my type but i really think that this movie will be a great one... :)
HARRY POTTER! i want to watch it on my birthday, 14th.. though my brothers want to watch it on 13th which is their birthday. kk. alright actually it doesn't really matter so long as we get to watch it.

yay! and good news.[hrmm. at least it is for me] my phone is fixed:) so it's actively in use now. yups.

2007-06-14T10:15:00.000+08:00

things that has happened in this hols:
1. china trip
i'm back with mixed emotions. grumbles + happiness + stress.
gumbles cuz the plane that i took was really lousy, but it was a pretty good experience because it just emphasized the plus points of SQ. the airline that i took had very little leg space which is the one and only thing that can irritate a person with long legs on an airplane. For 5 long and unbearable hours, i had to sit up straight even when i'm so tired that i wanted to sleep. To add on to the list, the guy is front pushed his seat backwards cause he probably didn't have enough leg space himself and also wanted to lie back and sleep instead of sitting up straight in an uncomfortable position. hellos! INCONSIDERATE. ya.so i endured through the whole flight with great uncomfort.thanks a lots man. it was a great position for meditation except that it was inappropriate then to go ommmmmm...
the food was cold and sad to say, quite watery, slimy and mashed up (the rice kinda looks like mashed potato] . [i'm sorry if this sounds bimbo]but eww..
remind me to take SQ next time. or maybe just don't take this airline.

for the trip, that was just about all the unpleasant things. phew!
alright:) china's really beautiful. just like what you see in pictures and movies. or even better. i really like suzhou and hangzhou. esp, hangzhou. the place is modern yet the cultural and natural beauty of the place remains in sight. it's a well blend of the old and new. the air is great and the sight of Xihu[west lake] is just breath-taking.
hahas. shanghai's impressive too. love the shanghai bund. again, it's a blend of the modern and ancient elements, in terms of the infrastructure. victorian and greek style buildings lining one side of the river, while there's the shanghai CBD area and the oriental pearl on the other side. simply, awesome.
2. Northlight Camp
it's my first time planning camp like this, couldn't have done all this without my NL adhoc. really glad that there're so many great people in the council to make this camp a success. as tracey and i were away 1 week before the camp, things would be in a mess if it weren't for the adhoc:) and GFs, esp christen and jiayi. i really thank my adhoc and the council for giving me this chance to be camp chief and for working together with the adhoc and i to make this an enjoyable cmap for all. i've really learnt a lot from this camp, and so have the others. how to deal with kids who're less intellectually abled than you and not exactly rules- adn intruction- abiding. like what xianglin said, unknowingly, we've grown together with them.hahas. a great step forward to becoming an imba facilitator and counsellor.for the girls, i think it brought out the motherliness in us,at least during the camp, to diff extent for each of us. it made me realise that the job of a counselor, like jim is very difficult. to play with them, gain their trust and respect before lecturing and inculcating the right values in them and bring some of the deviant ones back onto the right path.
conflict management. in the process of counselling a little girl, i realise that i was drawing from my own past experience. if u've nv experience such "ordeals" before, what you know will just be theory, and what u're doing is trying to make it link to reality, as realistic as possible. but if u're talking based on your experience or that of a close one whom u can truely feel for, the person that u're counselling can feel the emotions flowing out. counsel and advice with you heart- that's what i've learnt.

3. Under-No-Roof :Build 4 Hope
with jonathan, tatleong and huanyuet. lols. it was like a how-to-deal-with-REJECTION training course. lols. the more u ask and approach people, the more likely u'll get rejected :( and people like jonathan will just stand there and laugh at u. thanks a lot man!

4. Paint a Home 07 at Bishan Home
i met jiayi and crystal there. i was in the same team as crystal and we were suppose to paint the sick bay! lols. hahas. woah. what an impt task, and i'm not being sarcastic here. we have to paint the sickbay beautifully with brightly coloured and cheerful murals so that the sick patients will feel positive and be optimistic and eventually recover quickly:) hahas. a very meaningful task. i painted the base coat and drew an elephant on the wall!! hahas, very cute! :) there's a zebra, giraffe and a cute elephant (mine!) the NUS seniors were really funny people. lols. had fun painting with them. one of them can really draw giraffes. reallyreally cute giraffes :)

5. Korean-d
just finished watching the crown prince's first love. yup. it's very nice!!! hahas. just like what shh told me. highly recommended:)

things that i need to do by this hols
1. Study for mid-years
really need to study hard and prepare for the MYE le. hope that i can do very well in this exam :)! first major exam in vj. Jiayou!:)

(:smiles-

2007-05-22T20:51:00.000+08:00

:) new Blogskin!

Thankyou weeho for giving me a treat today:)something wrong with him man. apparently he's on a treating spree.hahas. great. gave me, shiwen and weirui and treat. lols.

anyway. i haven't been drinking enough water lately. kinda feel sick in the afternoon when it's super hot. burning hot..
argh.. kk. must start to take care of myself le.

as usually, i "quarelled" with jonathan and gang again. lols. thanks ar -.-"
now i know y it sucks being the younger sis. they only rmb you when they feel like distubing/bullying u. evil people. argh. sometimes it just makes me angry even though the things that they do are in a fun nature and it was just meant to be a joke (apparently they find my response funny). but when u're pms-ing. your tolerance for these jokes just tends to zero exponentially and it really gets on my nerves. but at least one of them knows when to stop. the other just go on and on 24/7!
only weeho realises that there was something wrong. lols.
i don't mean to sound sexist or what but seriously i think girlfriends are better pals then guys. they are there caring for you almost 24/7, listens to what you have to say and just be there. and that's wad's impt :)

got lots of project coming uo:
1. PW:)
2. NORTH LIGHT
3. Student initiated proj. fund raising for children's home. maybe walkathon or something..
suppose to be chionging proposals..
but things aren't going at full blast yet. the first 2 projects are super urgent.goodness. stressed! [at least i'm going to be]

going for softball trials with tracey tmr. really hope that we both can get in.
i really like softball. have been talkin about it for almost a year le. still can recall me, yf, ver and sh talking about it during pe last year.
jiayou for tmr! :)

yay! i'm wearing my new specs for the 2nd day le. hahas. look more like jiaming's specs than jonathan's. good. lols. hahas. now me, huanyuet and jonathan got the same type of specs:)he'll probably be ego and say that he's a trendsetter.lols :)

leaving for china in 3 days time. will be away for 8 days:)
hahas. finally there's a time when i can relax completely and shop to the max!
lols. HAPPY! kk. if there's anything you guys want just leave me a tag:)

-someone's bday's coming....

i want to watch PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN!!
jiaming's going for the gala premier of SHREK 3!! hahas. lucky girl:)
but doesn't really matter cuz i like pirates more! a thousand and one times more. i love it to the max. lols - sounds like jiaming...

2007-05-15T16:56:00.000+08:00

heyys
was emoing just now.
on the bus with doreen.
talked about lots of stuff.
some in-depth girl talk. lols.. very insightful reflections on my part. i didn't know that i'll tell her such stuff since i don't really reveal such things. and yup. i've come to agree that most if not all the people that i know who's birthday falls near july 13/14. are people who're double-faced. not really in the bad sense though. but we tend to have a different side of us. hidden. away from the outside world. different from the way people usually perseive us to be. things that are deep inside which we don't want to reveal or say for fear of being judged by others, or burdening others with one's own troubles and sorrows. or for other unknown reasons..
the lack of security exist, to a certain extent. we put on a mask. appear to be aloof. or untouched by the things that happen. unaffected, normal. os simply alright..
but are we really ok?or will it remain as a masquerade? when is the time to truely open up? i guess it's when one's with the right person at the right time. when that person is someone trustable and there for u always. one that u know would not be irritated with your bombardment of whines, complains and worries. (heh. this part is kind of exaggerated, anyway back to my point.. ) . one who listens. with his heart...

ok. hahas. shall stop being reflective...lols
kk. yay! good news! i passed my NAPFA!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...
it may be chicken feet to some of you out there. yes.
but i'm still going to be very happy and proud of myself for being able to do it. u'll understand why if u know the elaine story..lols.
having only being able to do about 4 inclines. hahas. i did 7 today.. HAHAHAHAHAHA. *claps* hahas. please allow me to indulge in this short moment of self-glorification. lols.
NO MORE THIRD PERIOD PE!!hahahas, yippees:)
to weeho: GOODJOB TOO!:)

[why did u wake me up from my deep slumber only to put me back to sleep again? why? but i don't blame you for that of course. at least. when asleep. i get to have sweet dreams. smiles XD and after which i'll be fresh, energised and ready to take on new challenges ahead. embark on the beauiful journey that lies ahead:) ]

2007-05-13T16:51:00.000+08:00

i want to watch spiderman! hahas.everyone else seems to have watched it already. except me! wow. great.
hrmm. i'll probably be watching it with tracey though. but nothing's confirmed yet.
new movies that i want to watch:
1. spiderman
2. pirates of the caribbean!!
3. lucky you
4. Shrek 3
yup. that's the list for now. no use having a long list anyway since i won't have time (and money) to watch all of these movies

and i want to go out with my darlings! ahh. our outing has been postponed time and again and we haven't gone out together for a long long time. hrmm .i really want to go out soon before i HAVE TO start studying for the exams.

reasons:
1.i'll be going on a holiday for 10 days.. (yay! china! )
2.Northlight mentorship camp- 3days
3. HnF overseas camp- 3 days
and there'll be meetings here and there that i've to go.. so that means that 2/3 of my holiday will be taken up.. which means that i have to start now. as in on mon. yup:) jiayou
oh ya. plus dance classes and stuff that i need to do for NYAA.so i don't really have much time left. so MUST START NOW!!!

these are the things that i've to do. but i don't know if i'm on track. whether i'm doing the things that i'm suppose to do already.

anyway... :)
i made new specs! hahas. going to collect it next week. sy's goin to say that it's girly if she sees it. hrmm we shall see. hahas but i think it's going to be quite weird since i haven't worn framed up specs for a long long time...

ok .about sy..
i wonder how things are going between terry and her..i haven't got time to call her up and talk about this. but according to marion. hahas. there seems to be some progress ahead :)
go terry!

reversathon:
people who're reading this part of the entry- reversathon: its like a marathon but you actually walk backwards instead. yup. it's 1.6 km (very short :)) at esplanade park on the 27 of may (07 of course) there'll be performances and roadshows like mini funfair , everyone will also be dressed in ORANGE! and tickets are only priced at $4. it's good exercise and entertainment. and because it is an event to raise funds for an elderly home and to raise awareness for dementia patients. it's meaningful too :)
so go and pull your friends along :)
and contact me if u're interested:) :) thanks XD
loveya~

2007-05-07T16:29:00.000+08:00

it's been a really busy week. went to sy's bday party on saturday after council's comm meeting and council lunch. so glad that she's having a great time in aj with all her friends, lols. no wonder she doesn't want to come over to vj eventually. hahas. good for her. she has Terry to take care of her. hahas. so i don't need to worry for this girl le. yup :)i also met her really nice friends during the party. another elaine. fiona. josephine. uncle. edwin. nicholas. junyang....and it was very fun to be with them.. hahas. oh. anyway, marion and i approved of terry! hahas. so..go terry! so scandalous. i guess it's like that during the first few months..lols.

need to chiong GPP. it's mon alr. two more days before the deadline for GPP! omg.
plus. tmr's NAPFA! argh. just had a nightmare about all these last night scary man!
i just don't want to do NAPFA! i'm preety lazy to train for it. and i can't do inclines for nuts. how?!?!?
as for GPP. i've got council invest rehearsal till 9/10 tonight. so i can't go home to do it.got to do it tmr, which is the day before the deadline. how i hate doing last minute work!
but yup. must belief that we can do all these and ace them:)
jiayou ba!

can't wait for the holidays to come :) hahas, then i can meet up with darlings le. aiyo. we didn't go out for movies together on sat. cuz i had council meeting and interview until pretty late and yf was busy on sunday. so ya. sad.. kinda miss them..
i want to watch spiderman! hahas.. don't know when i'll be free to go out though. sad..

hahas. who say that i cannot maintain..hahas. 1 week has passed. and that' s how long i've maintained. *claps* hahas.kk. so i'm back to being a listener.. back to my "job" of keeping secrets and giving advice.hahas. i wonder why now it sounds like my past time. lols. and wad marion said to me completely convinced me to maintain and keep it deep down inside.yay. i'm so proud of myself. yippees. hahas..

ok fine. i admit that i may be dao. but just and only when i'm preoccupied what.hahas. and i'm definitely not dao all the time. not like liang or jonathan.lols. can't match up to them, ad i don't want to .but i guess whether i like or not.. "ice princess" applies to me both literally and figuratively.
:) smiles

2007-05-02T11:11:00.000+08:00

currently printing proposals in sch now..
i'm bored..
time:11.14
lots of things to do today..sc in vest. squash trials. ct meeting. northlight meeting...
all these things. one after another.
everyone looks sad. emo or bored today.
haha. i'm suppose to be demure and gracious today cuz someone challenged me to. grr.
shall talk about this another time...
the printer's not working!!
arghh!

2007-04-22T16:42:00.000+08:00

Things that happened this week:
1) exco results
i didn't get in. but now i'm ok with it le. yup:) thanks to tracey, junliang and james:)

2) ICS night
USHERING!! hahas..i did traffic!!there were only 4 people doing traffic that day . jarren, jinghan, zhangyang and me! suppose to have at least 5 guys though. but nvm.. manpower shortage, so i volunteered to do it. yup. hahas. i was pretty fun la. learnt a lot in the process though i was very uncomfortable wearing that ugly green vest. grr. ok.
samuel actually thought that i was hyperventilating.lols. so funny. just because i was sick that day and still having a fever and flu.

everyone seem to be catching the flu bug recently, lots of people down with fever and all. blame the weather.kk. take care! :)
anyway, the dances during ICS were all super cool. it was a great show, very entertaining. two thumbs up! :) the only thing is that they didn't thank CT council at the end..grr. hahas who did the internal and external ushering? traffic?
lols. loads of thanks to daryl and aruna for helping me on that day, couldn't have manage it without you two. yups. hahas. and they really helped make traffic duties fun! and sorry daryl for scalding your hand! oops. i was really blur that day. i kept hitting his hand cause he was teasing me about the softball stuff, but i didn't realise that he was holding a cup of hot tea so it kept spurting out and spilled onto his hand.oops.and his wallet and phone. and it was at the same spot where i tore a bigger hole at the bottom of his jeans during OGL mass dance. oops.
counldn't be more embarassed than that. got to tell him to stay further away from me..

3) PW groups
yay! i'm in the same group as jiaming and joc! hahas. good. then there's zijie and shi min in my group too. double yay! i was just telling yanjie the other day that i want either jonathan, zijie or james in my group. either one will do. hahas.then in the end we got zijie! :)
hrmm..the allocation of groups was pretty good in the sense that all the group combinations are favourable. most of us have no probs with it. except maybe for weeho and some others..

4) northlight mentorhip prog.
we generated ideas for the prog on sat. i'm really looking forward to it. hahas. it's in a way like big sister looking after the liitle ones. guiding them along throughout the year, teaching them to plan events and other leadership qualities :) yupp. look forward to working with them.

5) TIP
taiwan immersion prog. i received the letter for it already. i really want to go on this trip. sounds interesting. experience the culture and FOOD!! hahas. but that's not all la. it's a once in a life time experience. so yupp. hope that i can make it :) and mroe people from my class will go too :)

6) eyecandy
what my mum and wilson said to me reminded me once again to maintain (though they both don't know who is it, don't even noe that i have one). made me more convince to maintain. and more determined to do so. so yup. that's the plan .forget about it once and for all. FRIENDS:) smile XD , good! at this point in time, a platonic relationship and my friendship with all those out there is more precious than any other :) so..that's it. i'm not going to do anything about it. and this will be the last time you'll hear about it from me:) DONE!

and GOOD LUCK to cedar handbellers for SYF on mon! must get gold with hons. yup. though most of the seniors (heh. including me ) won't be there to cheer u guys on on that day, you guys must still jiayou! i love handbell :)
grr. got SLV and investiture rehearsal...

7) SAY NO TO NO
kk. i read this from teh latest issue of times magazine. it's an advertisment from shell. i totally agree with it and of course, feel strongly for it. so yup. here's and excerpt on it..

[SAY NO TO NO]
isn't it high time someone got negative about negativity?
yes it is
look around. the world is full of things that, according
to naysayers should never have happened
"impossible"
"impractical"
"no"
and yet yes!
continents have been found
men have played golf on the moon
yes,yes,yes
what does it take to turn no into yes?
...
when the challenge is the hardest, when everyone else is shaking their heads, say: let's go!"

yup. it's a very positive and optimistic article, and obviuosly against the negativity that people show in various aspects. so this ties in with what i want to tell those who're going for competitions. JUST DO IT! you know you can..no matter wad others say. so yup jiayou to all my friends!
rj: yanyi and weehao! vj: junliang, siwei, jonathan, jaslyn, jocelyn, weeho, jiaming xiangling and most importantly...
CEDAR HANDBELL!!!

*last thing: this is so irritating! can't use my msn cuz it automatically sends virus files to people when i go online..so it spreads the virus when people accepts it. so if u receive a file named photo album don't accept it!!WARNING! i miss msn :(

2007-04-16T21:40:00.000+08:00

wahh. i super super cannot maintain. i think sooner or later he'll know. and i seriously don't want that to happen. so those who know just maintain and shhhh...don't say!!! hahas. thanks :) grr. y am i a person who always give obvious clues!?!?! ok. must MAINTAIN..
don't be distracted, stay FOCUS man! goodness.
must keep a distance from that person if not i'll definitely give clues that i'll regret giving. quote from xianglin " sure cannot maintain! ". lols. yup. i totally agree on that. so from today onwards.. KEEP A DISTANCE AWAY!
i was expecting the feeling to die down. to fade away... but it's taking longer than expected. what now?.. don't want to think about it already. being a close friend. and confidante is enough for me... it doesn't have to happen in the near future.. and i don't have time for these... i've other things to worry about..
kk. shall dao and keep a distance from that person. let's see if elaine can do it anot! yupps. (aiyo. i super super don't know how to dao people la! goodness. it's like asking me to do the impossible. haiz. i shall just start by pretending to be tired...)elaine and dao just don't link. just like strawberry and hokkien mee/horfun. no link!

cheers! hahas. was cheering super loudly for the vj soccer today. aiyo. MI scored when i just left.so i didn't get to see it. but nevertheless, good job VJ :)
wanted to go for nat track and field, so that i can cheer for both vj and cedar. but i 've a super important ct council meeting, so i'll be going for this instead. yupps!
:)

SLV on next monday at ECP ! class plan: dunk weeho!

kk. need to chiong PI alr..

sweet dreams people!

2007-04-14T21:57:00.000+08:00

today was principal-parent meeting. i was suppose to usher mr chan. lols. but apparently, he walked so unexpectedly fast that i couldn't catch up. aiyo. then make me look so extra. the teacher walked super slowly in a formal manner during the rehearsal which was different from the actual thing. yup.
i thought it was quite screwed since the event turned out to be less formal than we thought and it was quite chaotic at the concourse area when the parents couldn't locate the teachers that they wanted to see.
anyway, all the ct councillors were staring at the food throughout the whole reception event lo. hahas. then when i started eating (a bit only k?),chunkiat keep laughing and say that i cannot maintain. aiyo.. exactly like xianglin, always say that i cannot maintain. hahas. i shall learn to maintain, try to maintain. not only for today and for food...if u noe what i mean.
yup. i've decided that i'll just keep "it" in a little box, carefully locked up and place it deeply in the bottom of my heart. never will i let it out again...it'll probably fade away, slowly, eventually..sad to say, but this is the best solution...

worried about lots of things. so i'm quite emo now.
hrmm .let's start self-counselling session. must always remember to stay positive and smile. that's my philosophy :)

just feel like looking through fullhouse videos. esp when i'm sad..
hrmm. they nv fail to cheer me up. yup.so here's my favourite k-drama.
will always rmb it's hidden msg..
(they look so cute together!(: )

2007-04-09T21:51:00.000+08:00

hahas. so happy today... but can't blog about the happy stuff cause it's meant to be a secret and most of the time i "zi-high" .so it can't just be simplified and be put into words..
anyway.. ONGWEEHO owes me a lot a lot a lot..
here's an addition to the list. he owes me a treat! hahas. cause the guy got 4 music fest tickets! (: why? because jonathan and i were there to lend our "luck" to him.lols. with the two july stars standing next to him while he checks his mail.hahas. no wonder he's balloting process is successful. jk only la...
kk. thanks in advance for the treat! *hints* i want swensons! or fish n co. XD
meeting on ppm...STRESS!
i was so excited today, looking forward to the opening match for the soccer season today. then during midday, nicole msged me to tell me that there'll be a meeting AT THE SAME TIME as the match! *screams*
utter sadness and disappointment..
but nevertheless, i caught the last 20 mins of the match:)
hahas. if there's a match of vj vs mj, then i'll get to meet fang! hahas. :)

sch work:
chem test today! hahas so hard. got trick qn somemore. lols. even my "teacher" jonathan has low confidence for it. haix..
i love chem! target. must be as pro as the guys at it or even better lols.

anyway. jonathan's theory of aesthetics being inversely proportionate to intellect and that the constant k, varies for different people. bewildering huh?
i couldn't get it at first.. actually i still don't understand..it's just that i happen to hear the correct ans to it..
confusing right?
or is it me who's slow?ya. like my "brothers" always say. i'm 1 day slower than them..
declaration: I'M NOT SLOW.. I'M FAST,fyi.
any normal human being wouldn't be able to get it too wad..hahas. it's my honour to have such a smart brother though...

hahas. me, jonathan and hari were doing hand signals or rather self-created form of sign language during lunch. lols.we two training for pictionary competition ar? or are we testing if we have telepathy? lols. totally lame...

2007-04-06T12:35:00.000+08:00

heyys
went back to Cedar yesterday!wanted to visit mr yau too. but didn't...
lols. the three of us gave suggestions to improve their performance. sounds better and looks better now.. i guess. it's good to see that they're all so motivated to achieve gold with honours. jiayou! all these ahouldn't just be plain talk, u guys must practise harder, practise as a team and really believe that u guys can do it from the bottom of your hearts :)
DOLLY! hahas. warning! never give her clues to guess who your eyecandy is.[jkjk] anything more than three big clues. she'll be able to find out who he is. wooah.. dolly the psychic sheep. cool...

must start writing my speech after lunch! hope that i can do very well tmr! :) jiayou!
`together we stand...

going for lunch with family now...need to tuition my bro later...

`ilove the JULY family (:
hahas. and my two brothers too..one's a joker, and the other's super dao...

2007-04-02T20:45:00.000+08:00

today- 2nd april07
1)changed my blog song! :)-slight problem cause it always seem to be buffering...
2) nearly never got the chance to see my e.c. today.. nearly..
3)did igloo duty AGAIN! when it's not my duty hahas..
4) got tricked by weeho. argh. that guy.. cheat my feelings..
he told me yeaterday that due to tremors at bedok interchange, the ceiling is going to collapse anytime soon. so i was like " huh? really ar? got such thing?" then he told me that he had pictures as evidences...so i believed him!!?!! ar.. it was only until this morning that i realise that yesterday was april fool's day! got tricked by him in the afternoon again.. forgot what was it about alr..
5)latin ballet!- still thinking of the place to go. as in which studio..
got xiangli to go with me :) yay! but she's not allowed to dance doubles..
6)yay! did my PW-PI research alr.. :) going to write on kim eric drexler, on nano technology and it's applications.

2007-03-31T22:16:00.000+08:00

in a rush..
i've only two minutes to blog about today. bro's screaming at me alr!

kk. cedar 49th speech day. received the silver award. yup. cool .hahas. it's quite a funny sight to see the cedarians-cum-victorians run around the hall just to pass blazers to one another..lols. yup. the performance was great! i love handbell:) and it'll always be part of me.good job cedar handbell." euphony in unity"-must always remember this, i'll always rmb this...
jiayou for syf! :)
the latin dance was really fantastic! hahas. i love dancesport too..
still thinking of which studio to go to for latin dance lessons...
hrmm..
my mum gave the green light alr (super unexpected) but yup! latin dance!

ct event- survivor Aqualand- outdrink outspit outspray!
lols. today was fun la. esp for those who're planning for it.
thanks to all who came down to support us!
and good job to the exco noms! :)

thaipan-
lols.went to thaipan after the event! lols. the seniors are super sick! hahas. and i think only jiayi can't get their dirty jokes. grr. hahas. so funny la.. once again she proves that she's gong kia no.1!lols.
i love council!

just did my chem tutorials. hahas. spent 1 whole on this particular part! just can't get it. hahas. i think jonathan's tired of explaining it to me. lols. super hard to explain through smses..
confused..aiyo.. gave up. going to settle this on mon!
extra thanks to jonathan anwyay!
and his msn nickname reminded me that it's been super long since i've last watched my k-dramas. got no time for them now.. hrmm. sad.. i want to watch k-dramas! hahas. feel like chiong-ing k-dramas now... but that's not possible.. hahas. can only watch bit by bit of it when i'm free..boos...
though i've watched so many of them, my favourite one is still FULLHOUSE!(:
i miss full house and chunhyang.. i want to rewatch them!!!!!!!

2007-03-30T21:50:00.000+08:00

lols. i guess i'm loving ct council more as each day passes by. we're becoming more of a family..lols. i seem to have a lot of families in vj le..
me, jiayi and chengwei- daddy and daughters( apparently he picked us up from the rubbish bin!)
jiayi, cher, margaret and me (the gong kias -according to other councillors. a.k.a. the chio bu club-according to jiayi)
me. jonathan and yanjie ( july 13+14 babies)
yupps. super boliao!

it's sports day today! yupps. ursa cheerleading was great! lols. strolling and walking around the sch like got nth better to do halfway through.went to council room too..lols. that's wad almost everyone did..that's why the grandstand was so empty halfway through the event. lols. then when cheerdance was about to start.. the crowd came back. lols .we were cam-whoring while waiting for the events to kick off.

omg! i just deleted the impt file! argh!..NV SAVE!!..
redoing :( ....

kk. anyway..
GOOD LUCK for tmr! :) jiayou!

2007-03-22T22:18:00.000+08:00

wednesday-JTS + CT angels and mortal...
ok.. so know i know that chris is my angel! argh.. can't believe that i got the wrong person all these while. so blur. kk. but i've got no complains.. so fortunate to have super nice angel and mortal.. chris and chengwei.. haha :) although my mortal doesn't reply! hrmpf!.
feel really guilty for not giving chris anything.will make it up thought. johnathan must have accumulated some good karma. lols.
JTS at seoul garden..
it was super fun.. we totally flooded the place. lols. finally it was like interacting with the instructors as friends. lols. it was really weird at first..hahas.. and yuanli waved to me for the first time in so many months.lols. just an example. yay! finally all the "dao-ing" is over! hahas..all the ODAC seniors are super nice to hang out with.. of course. my fellow trainees are very fun people too.hahas. we're so bonded together already.. although we're all very scared about the release of results on saturday we seldom talk about it. no matter what happens. we'll still be friends. the results will only tell us if we'll become ODAC instructors or friends of ODAC.

selection of ct exco..
ok..going to hand up the form tmr:) jiayou! tmr will be a better day! yup. must aim high:)

scary...

emo:
[will there be anyone there to listen? will there be anyone there for me when i need it?
when i told u my problems in barely a few sentences...what does the look on your face mean? what did it show? i always thought that u'll be there for me like the way i'll be there for u. but now.. i'm not so sure...is it the case? i hope so:)i believe that true friendship can withstand the test of time, obstacles and all other adversities..]

2007-03-17T16:30:00.000+08:00

it's my first blog entry for the march hols.
hardly have time for rest. shopping. hanging out with friends.
but i'd never regretted going for the camps.
OLC!!!
it's the most unforgettable camp that i've gone too. yes. and indeed like the olc song. our hardships and our sufferings will become our memories. yupps. the four days that i'd spent in camp. with the coolest and outrageously fun people. doing the most daring and challenging activity that i've done in my life as yet. everyone had fun and did a great job.
even with our injuries, scars and thirst, we all left the place with a smile on our faces.
it was definitely a camp worth going for. we forged bonds that were stronger than before, went through the tough times together. as a cca. as ODAC. as one united group. encouraging, helping, cheering and pushing each other on.
we get to better understand ourselves and others through the camp. whether or not we'll get into ODAC eventually, OLC'07 will be part of my precious memory. the fun that we shared and the hardships that we endured will not be forgotten. everyone of us deserves to be in ODAC. everyone is very tough and ready to face the challenges in the outdoors. but not everyone can get in. though i really want to get into odac and be part of it, i won't be utterly depressed if i don't get selected.it's an honour to be in ODAC, not a right or necessity. as much as u want it. it may not be yours. so i'll just let nature takes its course. being part of OLC'o7 is the best opening that i can get for my life in VJC :)
`ilove odac! :)
odacodac sa. sa. oii

CT camp-
it was really a great contrast to OLC, as in the nature, discipline and activities of the camp.
OLC had more skills and physically challenging activities while activities in the ct camp were of a lighter nature and require more thinking skills. games like blood island campaign and chasing kira needed a lot of planning, foresight and luck. (actually i think one needs these too in OLC) the groups need to predict and anticipate each other or the opponents intentions/next move in other to win. blood island campaign is like the theory OLC. while OLC is more of the practical, doing side. lols. if i went for olc after ct camp, it would be like as if blood island came alive. during the game. we planned for the groups survival. and of course the strategies to win (we came in 2nd :):):) ) yupp. like the amount of shelter, food, water and compasses we need to trek across oasis, desert, normal land and villages. must consider the amount of items we're able to carry and the amt of money we have. it's like RPG la..
all these just reminds me of OLC part 2 in m'sia..
then the gaem chasing kira where we're given limit no. of transports to go from place to place and find out who is kira and where is he at the end of 20 turns. it reminded me of land ex in OLC. lols. when we ran all over s'pore. lols.
lols. ct camp was very successful in making us, initiates bond. and i think all the games are super well planned and the person who planned it must be super smart. kudos to him/her. good job :)
`i love ct council too :)
yay. finally we're allowed to enter the coucil room. hooray. it'll be my little home room/ hideout in VJ from term 2 onwards.lols. my little home! hahas.
the council song's really nice. very melodious.lols. the female initiates really bonded together during the camp. hahas. mainly by gossiping and singing songs together. it was fun. i really enjoyed my time in council. even those times when we had to clean up the council room :)

i stoned at home on friday..went to the polyclinic and library...

saturday.. went to the bedok industrial park to buy my sch u:)
hahas. then rush down to sims drive market where my grandma works to alter our uniform.
woah..the auntie's workmanship is really good. and it was very cheap too. hahas now the uniform looks beautiful..hahas. while waiting for her to alter our uniforms. i went to visit my grandma:)
i love my grandma too:)

2007-03-06T22:34:00.000+08:00

Today's the day for the release to JAE posting results.
yup. posted to vj:)
yay that means i can continue to be an ogl and stay in council.
but so sad. quite a number of my good friends are leaving. hope they will be successful in their appeal.

ivie. zhan liang. siewhwee and dolly came to my hse today:)hahas cuz there' s no sch today. yup. lols. it's like training course for IR. hahas. played mahjong and cards all the way until afternoon. siewhwee and ivie keep losing until afternoon .lols. finally can recoup.lols. play for fun only la. nv really treat the game seriously. so funny. before ivie came. zhanliang was so entertained by shh's blurness. hahas. and he keep losing ar.. hahas. then ivie came.whhooa. hahas. she seems to be his lucky charm man! the moment she sat down. he won! lols. then me and zhan liang keep having "fake wins" ,something false alarm. hahas. so can't win because of that..

went to parkway with ivie and zhan liang. hahas. we rushed like mad and jaywalked cuz we heard that alan was angry, he was alone and zhanliang was alr very late.hahas. so we went there and alan was with 2 other friends. woww. so much for rushing.hahas. but doesn't matter la.
i wanted to go for the bbq with them. but i was grounded. can't even go for the whirlwind meeting. hope jolene's not angry..

yup. got to know the people who will be in my og tmr. hrmm. hope that they're nice. enthu and humourous, i don't mind jokers in my og..

hahas. hope that tmr will be an exciting day! :)

Do i like him already? i dunno. i know i shouldn't. but i if i really like him alr? does he feel the same way for me? or is it better to remain as friends? can i keep it a secret? can i MAINTAIN? still waiting for him to make the first move....

yay! O2:)
tmr will be a better day! :)

2007-02-24T21:54:00.000+08:00

[OLC 2007

where i spent my 1 term in..

with my GIs and buddies.

there are no chiobus to see

there are no yandaos to see

only GIs and buddies.

OLC 2007

we all hope to be instructors

我们永远不放弃

就算我们buay tahan

我们也会再接再厉

all our hardships and our sufferings

will become our memories

so c'mon everybody join the ODAC family!]

yay! got ODAC training plus camp briefing today.

pioneering. pitching tents. hornet attacks.

waah..was super tired after that.. but dunno y. when i keep doing something.. i begin to like it. eg. though pitching and unpitching was tough and tiring, but it's very fun to do it as a cohort. it feels good to work together. hahas.

i feel very bad when we got scolded. like when we keep repeating the same mistake.

when we were pitching our tent, one guy ran past and kick the tent peg out then an instructor picked it up and my grp lost a peg. argh. i so happen to see it and was in the vicinity plus it was my grp's tent. (the guy's not even in my grp!) aiya. but nvm. one for all, all for one. it's ok:) hahas. quote" when we're out there, when the conditions are harsher, you guys must work as a cohort, a team, help one another, no longer an individual or group." :) yay! i like it! teamwork!anyway, i must start thinking about campfire liao! so little time, so many things to do[stress!]. jiayou!

but i feel quite bad that whirlwind made so many mistakes....

yay! then we went our for lunch! i love ODAC!! everyone's super fun to be with. all jokers. hahas. ate at pastamania. then went shopping(the guys went home). then went to eat dessert. super fun. then all the seven girls talked, joked and gossiped a little.hahas. it's like being back into a girls' sch again:) then we went to choose specs for denise.hahas. took super long. we both don't suit any of the specs there. boos. i should just stick to frameless..

then the five of us. sat outside the optical shop. me. kaili.jolene. siewhwee.fanny. hahas. then i was holding this red flag (whirlwind grp flag it's beautiful!:)) hahas. then when we make noise, it looks as if we were on hungry strike cuz we were sitting just outside macs. in a circle. on the floor.hahas.

ok.had fun today. quote: "tmr will be a better day"

still going visiting. so can't go weeho's hse in the afternoon. sad-

hahas. but nvm. smile :)

2007-02-23T20:54:00.000+08:00

lols. the whole world's like emo-ing...
at least 5 people told me that they're sian today..
and with me. denise. jolene and maybe even serena, feeling ultra emo and sad yesterday..
wooah. what's the world coming to?

i'm going to be grumpy and whiny for this part so u can skip this part if u want to...
tell a sad person that someone else is sad? hello?!?! weird. it just show that u don't care so stop saying that u're caring. perhaps, u really are caring, but to a certain extent, to certain people ONLY. selective...
sian.. it's like watching a boring movie over and over again. boring. sian. expected. irritating...

lols. kk .whining and complaining time OVER!
yay:)
i smile even when i'm sad. laugh even when i feel like crying or am crying..
it's unhealthy. but doesn't matter..

:) anyways. yup. moving on to the brighter side of life.
things have been very fun the past few days :) i love all the ODAC people!
lols. super fun to be with. always smiling when i'm with them. lols. that's one of the reasons why i really want to be in ODAC. with these friends around u, it just makes the hardship more endurable..will train hard before olc part 2. at least i'll try to. jiayou! :)

nothing much to blog about. went to thaipan with my classmates today. gossiped. joked. lols. scandals and lame jokes. lols. i know that i shouldn't be gossiping. hrmm .will try to curb this problem.. aiya. but got no gossips to talk about now. so nvm. i shall "zip". keep the secrets safe:) ...
lols. interesting. walked around with the long long pole today. hahas. super paiseh. very attention catching. :(
anyway, today's one of those days again when i always c josiah around. lols. watched he and his gang during their music fest auditions:) yups. goodjob man! super pro. better than the only 2 other grps that i've watched. i even saw this teacher giving them a thumbs up at the corner of my eye.. lols. and he keeps imitating my laughter! grr. lols. weird. not up to standard yet..
ohh. and sufiyan's "shadow" looked super pro on stage too. yups. overall it's a big thumbs up:)

tmr's the camp briefing plus training. going for ODAC instead of ct tmr, cuz the briefing's very impt. yup. feel quite bad actually. hrmm. will make up for it some other time.
i love both ct and ODAC:)

OLC PART 1:)

2007-02-12T11:09:00.000+08:00

yay! i survived OLC part 1!
it's was super tough, but i endured and manage to participate in all the activities in the camp:)
though it was tough and tiring, it was very very fun too, i get to experience the things that i couldn't get to experience if i didn't join OLC.

Day 1:
we were all looking forward to the camp with a tinge of nervousness and fear..
land expedition was extremely fun but tiring at the same time. whirlwind did 13 stations in all:)
yay. we walked-and-run like crazy around pulau ubin, frantically searching for the clue card/number cards..everyone did their best to look for the card. the dirt, soil, branches and even spider webs didn't seem to matter anymore. we just want to find the card and move on. the GIs were very encouraging, their "scoldings" were reverse motivations for us, pushing us forward. and because we didn't know how are the other groups doing, what the GIs said make us feel that we are lagging far behind and there was just no more time left! so we chiong and chiong. not really with the mindset to win the race and be no.1, but with the mindset of doing our best, meet our targets and not disppoint ourselves and the GIs.
for us, the last station was the furthest of all, though some of us wanted to give up and return back to murbai hut(home base) , but in the end we decided not to. we were determined to do the 13th station even if we need to crawl or roll there.yups. that's the spirit man!
woah. chris and jiawei was super good at orienteering. then jolene, chris and i were fantastic at searching for the clues (lols. maybe beacuse i'm always looking for my missing stuff) . then GT was very creative with the cheers. and ben is super strong and helpful.
yay! teamwork:)

at night we had the solo night walk plus solo night.i had many many blisters on the sole of my feet, in one big circle.But i didn't want to leave the camp with regrets at the end of the day. yups. so i did the night walk like everyone else. it was very fun yet scary. i didn't know if it's just me or everyone else also couldn't really see our way. i felt quite lost at certain parts. sometimes i can see/feel that an instructor in in frontof me so i moved aside, but in the end i went off track by a little. but nonetheless, i still manage to complete it with a pretty average timing.
solo night. it was scary.but still manageable.managed to build the tent and fire successfully. yups..managed to set the fire on my own, but one of the instructor came and taught me how to improve it. :) the tent was alright. but 1 side of it was loosened when i woke up. at first i couldn't really sleep cuz i was imagining snakes and wild boars near by cuz i keep hearing weird noises. but that was only for the first 5 mins i guess.then i fell asleep:)

Day 2 : sea expedition
actually i like sea ex a lot. but just because i have motion sickness. something will happen to me when i do kayaking. i ate 3 ginger pills on the way out. but i still vomitted. boos. super disappointed with myself and very sorry to my kayaking partner chris. was actually given the choice to stop kayaking. but i didn't want to. i want to do the same thing as others. complete the same course as them. do the exact same activity as them but not by the easier way. actually i know that chris had no strength to carry on too, and after puking i was kayaking on an empty stomach, but still i made the decision to go on. then when approaching Big splash( our destination) the girls in the front of the double kayak was made to stand up and balance yourselves on the kayak. lols. it was super fun. but there's more to come after this..
after thatwhen nearing the shore. we had to paddle back with our hands, back to shore. (took about 2 hours plus in total) lols. super fun la. though it was tiring. i think everything in this camp is tough and tiring, but at the same time they are super fun and enjoyable:) yups. on the return trip back after lunch. i predicted that i would puke though i didn't want to. ya. and i took the fourth ginger pill. after a while of kayaking. my stomach feels kind of weird alr. lols. i know it's coming. but still. we must go on :) (how can u stop in the middle of no where anyway!?!)yups. so we kayak and kayak until we came to the raft-up point, still with chris. then sufiyan gave me this lollipop. lols. then after which everybody continue to kayak off, i was sucking the lollipop and kayaking at the same time. so i focus on sucking the lollipop and moving forward to catch up with the rest. lols. now at least were're not the last one. yups. and thanks to sufiyan's lollipop, believe it or not. i didn't feel like puking. yupps. then at the 2nd kayaking point. the people in the first three kayak and the last three kayak had to change partners.lols. so i get to change partners. lols. and sufiyan came to my kayak and switched places with chris :) yups so we continue to kayak.. and thanks to sufiyan again. we were leading. lols. but dolly's kayak keep over taking us. lols. but they can't move in a straight line. lols. so the next 3 kayaks behind was blocked but them and then we sort of went in the zig zag formation too. lols. (dolly! there are no wild boars in the open seas.lols) ya. then intentionally or not. the three kayaks at the back took turns to bump into dolly's kayak. lols. like bumper cars. lols. it was super fun. u could feel the wind, " jump" on the waves. woos. fantastic man! ok. so i was very distracted by the mini "war" and the lollipop in my mouth that i forgot to take the ginger pills. yups. we just focus on moving forward and we kept moving forward. jumping on waves. and encouraging each other. lols. just chiong. lols. i went from the last or second last to the first. lols. then for the last stretch of the expedition. it was a race. we couldn't see the sea chief. so we had to find our way back to shore.but we know that if we landed up at the wrong place, we could lose our first place.so yups. i just any how guess that it's that shore with the lighter coloured trees. sufiyan didn't disagree or anything. so we just go for it. lols. then when nearing we saw this red kayak near the shore which confirmed that our decision is the correct one. lols. so we managed to arrive the first position. leading the second kayak to shore too. yups. and everyone else arrived safely. the trip took 3 and a half hours.lols. it was super long and super tiring. but it was worth it:) lols.joke , talk and play so much on the way, still can arrive first. lols. the two lollipop that i ate on the way worked wonders. lols. and the ginger pills too, helped in one way or another :)
thank you GIs, intructors, esp Instructor Stella (first aid i) and GI audrey and sufiyan
:)
then we trekked back to sch..
i had a really memorable weekend :)
lols.my blister expanded and combined in to huge one now..
and i have pe on tues

lols. smiles!

2007-02-05T22:12:00.000+08:00

kk. i only have 1 minute left to blog.
alright..
many things happened today.
my specs broke..so suddenly, just when i was wiping my specs. boos.
i had to walk around and spent the next half of my day with blurred vision.
rush to the optical shop at 8 plus at night..
got a new frame. sliver and red. super hard to shoose cuz must be light. high bridged. with 8 holes. frameless. so my new frame is probably the best that i can get in 1 hour. i must admit that the colour combi is nice and i really like red and silver a lot.
but most probably i'm getting a new pair after CNY. that's the spare..
i like everything i have:)

went out with samuel and weirui to buy the paint. lols. talked about super random things but all these just goes to show that weirui and i are really alike though samuel keeps denying it. lols. i probably knows y. alright. doesn't matter anyway. hahas. need to rush a lot in the painting of the CNY board and banner. jiayou:)!

smile:)

2007-02-04T16:59:00.000+08:00

heyys
lols. i didn't know that jas and changsheng actually read my blog..
anyway, there are so many things to do recently.
went for the ctc interview. hope that everything went well:)
and the o-levels results are coming out! :) hope that i'll do very well for it:)

and there's the ursa banner and the cny board to be painted..
need to go and buy the paint for the cny board.probably have to stay back in school everyday to complete all these. in addition, we still have the SLV proj to do.
great.
going to buy the paint on my own either on mon or tues so that we can all start painting the wooden board on tues/wed. so in the meantime, we can paint the ursa banner :)
for the SLV. i'm totally lost. i have no idea where and how to start. yongwen says that using the night mode to film the video will be pretty ugly cuz it'll appear greenish...ew..
so we'll need to "increase the light exposure" which i have no idea how to do so. need to experiment with the cam. bring the tripod along. and need to do trials an learn how to use the cam before the actual filming. and yupp. need to bring torchlights and all other types of light along..super alien stuff to me. don't understand at all. but i guess we'll figure it out soon..

tomorrow will be a better day:)

yay` i still love my class no matter wad.. :)

lots of discussion and things to be done tmr ! jiayou! :)
but i'm not talking to someone tmr...
lols.happy figuring out who that someone is..

2007-01-29T22:39:00.000+08:00

blogging in a rush..
today in a few sentences...
school went on as usual. lectures and tutorials, one after another.
woahs. lucky jonathan. he's got a super generous angel who gave him one big huge packet of sweets. gummybears. fruit gums and all..
went to thaipan for luch with samuel, winston, jaslyn, weeho and doreen. suppose to be a class outing but nvm..
lols. yay. i proves that my choice was a wise one. my 3 fav guys in class all went for the lunch. super sporting. good! :) anyways. we joked, gossiped and talked about many things.. raked up both sweet and sorrow memories..
had a great time with all of them though there were only 6 of us.
lols. samuel and i are super big eaters! we managed to finish 2 medium (which looked rather large)
plates of thai style fried rice and hor fun! hahas. plus dessert too. fantastic!
lols.weeho is the first person in the world i guess to say that i'm a sporty person. lols. no one ever describe me with that word...lols.
super sorry to winston la. can't rmb his birthday, when i rmbed samuel and weeho's. sorry! it's definitely not intentional..
ok..then after lunch we went to parkway to meet weirui. and samuel reaslised that he lost his ezlink card after alighting. so ya.. super troublesome. long and tedious process to get it back.. i know it cuz i've experienced it a lot of times!! sian.. talking about lost items, i lost my cedar jacket! feel like crying liao. must try my best to find it back..
anyway, we felt quite bad for samuel cuz if we didn't make him come with us he wouldn't have lost it. so ya.. really sorry.
ok..so we bought weirui a watch at $5o, which was a pretty reasonable price for such a beautiful watch. tmr's her birthday! lols. get ready to be dunked!happy birthday in advance!:)

o-levels results are coming out!! i really hope for the best:)
hope that i will do very well in this exam. heard that it's coming out on the fifth. i'm just as nervous as everyone else.All the best!hope that there'll be good news:)

2007-01-28T22:47:00.000+08:00

lols.i had a fun filled weekend at the changi sea sports club and the costa snads pasir ris chalet:) yays! alright. there has been lots of activites coming up. the list of them is still going on. includes thing like class outing and SLV.

yups.the kayaking course was super fun! though it was tough with the strong surrents and choppy sea. but eventually everyone made it through the course and pass the test. so we all got our 1 star kayaking cert! :) good!though i think people like me just managed to pass. that aside, i love the deep sea rescuing the most.hahas. it's super fun being the rescuer.all the ODAC people in the course are all very enthu and fun-loving.. so yupps. made many new friends including the very pro instructors who were super dao most of the time.
thankyou winston, weirui and samuel for giving me your support and encouragement the night before:)

my mortal(-xianglong).me.my angel(-yongwen)
had an awesome time at the chalet. the senior class people were super high. but we were talking and gossiping most of the time.i really like this chalet a lot though there were some people who were always glued to the x-box. but yups. the senior class and my class people are super awesome people to be with. helpful. enthu. daring and sporting. whees-
lots of thanks to weirui and doreen who put in so much time and effort into organising the chalet.thankyou to all seniors who came and liven up the atmosphere:)
really sorry that i left quite suddenly. without informing everyone.cuz i didn't want to disturb your game.lols. anyway a lot of people stayed over at the chalet and i heard that they had quite a lot of fun until they were so tired that most of them fell asleep in the morning.
class lunch outing on monday:) yippees

girls only!!!

twelve and a half girls of 07s56 canu spot the half? :)

anyway, i'm too tired to blog about the details today. maybe some other time..
shall start to keep quiet le. lols. cuz my voice is unique but rough!?!? coarse?!!? sore-throat like?!?! the Nanny like?!?! high pitch??!?! irritating after a long time!?!?
what ever the case i shall TRY to keep quiet. which i don't think is very possible for the normal elaine...

2007-01-23T21:40:00.000+08:00

stressed! drowning in the pile of things that has got to be done asap! boos- don't want to burden anyone with it. so i'm doind my best as much as possible, but apparent that's not enough because i've been really sleepy the past few days. so yupps. needs improvement.
argh! lost in chem! so hard! james lend me your ws tmr k? lols. thanks a lot:)
ok..i must sleep early today and get back onto the right track tmr:)

elaine! smile and jiayou!! :D

2007-01-22T16:39:00.000+08:00

today's a super unlucky day for me..
i was super sad in the morning. keep thinking of wad someone told me. plus i was so tired in the morning cuz i didn't had enough sleep the previous night. boos. was thinking about the thing. so can't really concentrate during assembly. ya. then doreen saw me looking so sad and depressed then she started asking me "elaine, why u crying? dun cry leh" hahas.i wasn't even crying la. i was yawnign so my eyes were teary and all. but ya. after she keep repeating the word "cry" then tears started flowing out. boos.so weird la. ya. then suddenly remembered that i had to go for the CTC meeting.hahas. so yups. all the drama stopped and i ran to the back of the hall or the meeting. and speaking of running. the soles of my blue nike sports shoes came off. that's probably 1 of the reasons why i was depressed.hahas. it's all the minor sad things that adds up.. yups.i was so paiseh for the whole day. walking like a crippled duckling around the sch. don't know whether hari gave the locker form and money to samuel alr anot. if not, it'll really leave a bad impression on the 56 ctc nominees. hope not. cuz i really want to be in VJ CT council.
anyway xianglong's letter and the m'n'ms chocolates really cheered me up. shared the chos with everyone la. wanted to give it to sh. but she looked bz and look like she don't want to talk to me. so i didn't have the courage to walk over to her table, moreover her whole class was there.
anyways. xianglong is really a super cute senior and i figured out who his mortal is already!!!! hahas. he is another funny guy that writes letter to his angel and mortal using the same pen, in the same handwriting and gives the same brand of chocs, just of diff flavours. lols.and he looks super cartoon in his white specs. lol.
and thanks a lot amanda. for lending me your mp4 and teaching me chem:)
the song "the remedy" really brighten up my day:) lols super emo today. easily depressed and happy. hahas. actually it's super easy to cheer me up on normal days too..oh ya. back to the song. though it's not really a new song but it's one of those song that can make me forget about the unhappy stuff. and just enjoy the music in my own world even if it's only for a few mins. cuz after that i realised that i had to do the chem tutorials.
hahas.
and thanks James. for the chocs.this guy is super generous la. he shared with the class this super huge box of chocs which his mortal gave him and in the end when everyone took one.. he was left with nothing wat all.. if i hadn't finished eating mine i would have given it to him but nvm..
and today i realised that hari is actually a nice guy too. if u talked to him one-to-one. not that scary but he's indeed a strong competitor.ok. yupps. from today onwards i'm going to treat him equally well. no more prejudice. friends:)
but he still sounds scary when he talks to others...dunno why..maybe i got to see the nicer side of him today.. :)
hahas..samuel ng! lols. hahas. i still want to be in the same grp as him in the next gp discussion! wah. if you're in his grp, don't even need to dicuss much cuz in the end we'll end up not presenting the things that were discussed. lol. during our presentation we ended asking the class a lot of controversial qns. so it ended up as a two-way conversation thing. hahas. all thanks to samuel who came up with all the qns. and the things he said was really impressive. and it saved our whole group from the topic of political elitism. hahas. all i did was to add on to his qns and argument, spice it up and do the summary of the passage.hahas. but everyone in our grp contributed :) hahas. and thanks to super enthu people like xiangli , amanda and james, our presentation went without a hitch. lols. hahas. then me and samuel panicked before that for nothing. hahas. GP's fun! :) i still want to be in the same grp as shara, jonathan, zijie and samuel! lols.

i love my class! :)

2007-01-21T23:10:00.000+08:00

heyys!
finally i'm blogging again:)

yupps. starting to like my new class more and more. seeing interesting people everyday (not only my classmates). yups.. No. 1 fan of *****.hahas. secret!
lols. nothing much la.
feel like asking the girls in my class to train and exercise with me during the breaks..after hearing what andre said about he's pe lessons. woahs. really make me feel like i'm doing very little. i mean 2km vs 10 km ?!?!
ok. so i'll put in more effort in training..
yups..at the same time i'll put in more effort in studying too..hahas found people to study wiht me liao..lols.
yups..and i'll try my best for the CTC selection :)
jiayou.

hahas..after hearing so many things about andre (hrmm.. actually not a lot) i finally get to meet him today. hahas. a really nice person. someone who can click well with girls in general i guess. (probably someone like weeho. lols) yupps. no wonder sh treats him as her twin sis. lols. and he's hanging out with girls most of the time. eg. he went out with me, ver and sh today. hahas. 1 guy 3 girls combi AGAIN. it's the same case for him at home too..lol.

i've learnt something today. that is to speak with caution.. whatever u say may cause a butterfly effect. making a mountain out of a molehill. so yups. not going to say anything that's confidential unless it's way pass it's expiry date. hrmm..so dont worry. your secrets are safe...lols

hahas.i was also reminded of the cliche phrase "never judge a book by it's cover"
one guy who don't look musically inclined, can actually play the piano pretty well and i was super impressed with it.